update: I’m cutting my lease early. Hope he signs to agree. I’m sure he’ll destroy everything one last time since I’ll be paying for it. But I’m not risking my life for this.
update: I’m cutting my lease early. Hope he signs to agree. I’m sure he’ll destroy everything one last time since I’ll be paying for it. But I’m not risking my life for this.
Just looking for people who engage in this. My therapist says it’s my brain protecting myself but it becomes excessive and addicting at times where I’m overthinking things I want to do or daydream about doing it and never do. I’m working on it. I daydream about safe spaces romantically, in a home setting. Being loved nurtured and cared for. I’m crushed because I found someone but they don’t want me romantically. And now I can’t daydream.
I feel like mine gradually gets worse through the night and then it gets so bad to the point where I literally cannot lay my head down on a pillow, regardless of what side I’m facing, sometimes sometimes I even feel like sitting up against the wall and sleeping.
My pressure went up and I feel like I’m more susceptible to being sick, now my forehead and cheeks are flared up
What’s the difference??? I’m struggling with this lately. How do you know if it’s just you being “you” (recurring splitting) and you really want/feel something or you actually seriously don’t want it. So much back and forth for me. What is real lol what do I REALLY feel and want for myself, I can’t even say.
* I’m typically okay but in this case it’s long term possible partner / marriage (the back and forth is killing me)