the trauma purging is too intense. i have chronic pain that i think is because of this process. i don’t want to look at these memories. i don’t feel like doing anything cuz i don’t feel like the need to be anything anymore because i don’t feel like i lack something and need to prove myself. i know i have faith in the process and that this phase ends and there is an integration after this but im so fucking tired.
the trauma purging is too intense. i have chronic pain that i think is because of this process. i don’t want to look at these memories. i don’t feel like doing anything cuz i don’t feel like the need to be anything anymore because i don’t feel like i lack something and need to prove myself. i know i have faith in the process and that this phase ends and there is an integration after this but im so fucking tired.
i graduated college and been so bored this whole summer with nothing to do don’t got a job yet. talk to me no creeps
the flashbacks make me so angry 24/7 i just punch walls. it is crazy how much evil exists in this world. i can’t believe there exist ppl who take pleasure in committing such disgusting things and hurting others.
How do you hold yourself accountable? I have a hard time doing it cuz it’s just me