u/Open_Web_9234

Hello, I do not have schizophrenia and I'm trying to understand how it works.

I have a question regarding word salads or basically what is sometimes known as graphorrhea / glossomania. I sometimes come across comments on social media, mainly on Youtube and Facebook, that contain very long but disorganized text that is hard to understand. Sometimes the person who has written said comment, will usually reply to themselves or they will continue writing multiple comments, repeating the same things over and over. Now I've heard that this is caused by disorganized thinking, but often times when I see such comments, I ask myself what that person is going through. Are they going through something horrible when that happens? I want to know what is happening to that person at the moment because I often worry about them, even if I don't know that person at all.

I apologize if I might've said something insensitive or ignorant, I would like to hear your opinion or experiences on it, because I'm trying to understand what is happening to someone when they leave these long disorganized word salads on social media.

As Ren herself stated in her document, she directly asked Zeal to not hurt himself and to not try to commit suicide. Zeal ended up uploading a video where he was crying for an hour straight and then proceeded to try to end his life. Most of us know he was sent to a hospital and he survived.

What bothers me is that despite Ren stating that she still cares about Zeal and does not want Zeal to do anything bad to himself, Ren has:

- Reposted a post made by her brother that was full of death threats
- Not said anything about Zeal's suicide attempt at all
- Basically just keeps blabbering about random shit in her server

It bothers me that it doesn't seem like she even remotely cares, despite what she said in her own document. I don't care about how you have chocolate smeared on your face in one of your selfies Ren and I don't care about your new V-tuber model.

I care about important updates on the well being of both of you and what is going to happen next. I would say I almost find it disturbing how the situation is being treated.

So, usually when I play regular mode aka Retrieve the Crystal, I usually die because of either

- Firewall
- Abomination
- Searchlights

However, today I tried out endless mode and reached 164 rooms, I could've gotten further but I had to leave due to an appointment. Anyways, there was no firewall, no sewer creature nor searchlights. People often say that endless mode is much harder, but to my personal experience, endless seemed a lot easier.

So my question is: is endless easier or is it genuinely harder and I just suck at the three things I listed above that apparently do not appear in endless mode?

I'm running out of horses to power my car

I'm not someone who sides with Ren and I do think a few jokes about the elephants and the dinosaurs were funny, but I just opened Reddit and all I see is post after post on ''how can we harass / annoy Ren the most by spamming [insert emoji] or [insert picture] and it's gotten to a point where even I think it's going too far. Are some of you just here for the entertainment?

People with BPD are being misunderstood
People with autism are being misunderstood
Victims of SA are being misunderstood
What Ren is experiencing is real for her
Zeal attempted suicide by slicing his wrists
People were jumping on Zeal
People are jumping on Ren
People are making memes of the situation
People are trying to make bank of the situation
People are fighting with each other about it
and the game Pressure, will most likely die

Why must we all be like this?