u/Opening-Garden-2512

i remember having the surgery and my grandma telling me that it’s to make me “avoid sinning”, i remember the pain and the blood and the face of the man that did this to me.

however as i grew up my desires were still as any normal teenager, i can still feel pleasure easily and if i look down i can’t really tell if any part is missing so i have no idea what happened to me.

it didn’t make me “avoid sinning” and i feel completely normal but i genuinely can’t tell what the heck went on in that surgery room, i obviously have never seen any other female private part and i can’t tell if anything is weird, is there any way to know?anyone who went through this?

i remember having the surgery and my grandma telling me that it’s to make me “avoid sinning”, i remember the pain and the blood and the face of the man that did this to me.

however as i grew up my desires were still as any normal teenager, i can still feel pleasure easily and if i look down i can’t really tell if any part is missing so i have no idea what happened to me.

it didn’t make me “avoid sinning” and i feel completely normal but i genuinely can’t tell what the heck went on in that surgery room, i obviously have never seen any other female private part and i can’t tell if anything is weird, is there any way to know?anyone who went through this?

i remember having the surgery and my grandma telling me that it’s to make me “avoid sinning”, i remember the pain and the blood and the face of the man that did this to me.

however as i grew up my desires were still as any normal teenager, i can still feel pleasure easily and if i look down i can’t really tell if any part is missing so i have no idea what happened to me.

it didn’t make me “avoid sinning” and i feel completely normal but i genuinely can’t tell what the heck went on in that surgery room, i obviously have never seen any other female private part and i can’t tell if anything is weird, is there any way to know?anyone who went through this?

i keep dating non muslims and i genuinely can’t imagine myself with someone arab or muslim like me, for some reason i was always so unlucky with meeting them and i’ve only found peace dating and being with people that are either christian or non believing.

I KNOW IT’S HARAM

but part of me wants to think that love has no religion and i just can’t stop it.

i crave companionship and love and i’m a very romantic person as well, but i can’t even find a muslim man that i like. NEVER.

right now i’m taking to someone of i got the random thought of ghosting him and i feel bad because he’s genuinely such a nice person and a good fit for me.

HELP ME TO STOP SIMPING THANKS