u/Ordinary-Caramel-608

For those of you that have experienced this, did your libido come back when you eventually stopped taking lexapro?

I'd love to hear your experiences on the actual process of giving birth! Was it worse or better than you thought it would be? Why?

Husband and I want to start trying soon! I fully understand it may take much longer than we think. However, I'm wondering what we can start doing now to help have a healthy/happy baby in the future? If you in my shoes, what sort of things would you be doing? Thanks!

As a kid my dad was my hero.. part of me is grieving the dad I thought I had back then. He can be a creep to other women. He was physically and emotionally abusive to my mother, I've witnessed a lot growing up. A cheater with numerous women. My siblings no longer speak with him. He has never remembered my birthday, has maybe called me a a few times in the past 10 years. It's a very one sided relationship, and when I do reach out, it's very surface level and very awkward and uncomfortable. Once he even hugged me to make his mistress jealous (she didn't know I was his daughter). He has a narcissistic personality. It is so confusing and mentally hard for me, because I never know what's real and what's for show. He acts like he doesn't care about me what so ever, but in front of others he will act like the old dad I thought I knew. I'm 30, and it shouldn't still carry so much weight on me, but with big life events (getting married, first house, trying to start a family) it has brought up the deep loss I feel. It's so hard seeing him get older and knowing I will probably never the love I deeply wish I had from him.

TLDR: Can a father who never reaches out, beats your mother in front of you as a child, use you to make a mistress jealous, doesn't remember your birthday, still love you?