u/Overall-Minute-9891

25 yr old with 3 years gap after Bsc maths . I have no idea what to do next . That's my problem i don't know what I want in my life . I envy people with passion and goals. It's so awesome that some people at least know what they want from their present life . I know everyone has their own set of problems but brave enough to be like ,"ok this is what's in my control right now so I should just do this thing for the time being" .

I did bsc maths because my mom told me to . Now my family has stopped pestering me to do anything particular they're like "just do anything at this point instead of bed rotting all day " . I can't buy anything because obviously i don't have any income of my own and am completely dependent on my parents. The only thing I actually like is making art but I have no idea if I can make a comfortable living out of it and I'm too depressed to do anything these days .

I suffer from severe social anxiety , so much that I literally couldn't stay in the hostel and dropped out of my master's degree (MSc data science) after 2 months .

I'm willing to learn any skill but scared if I can get a job in the data science field with just personal projects and certifications. I've heard so many people say that the market is too saturated and there's a lot of people with similar certifications and projects and no real world experience .

I'm terrified of going for a master's degree because I'll be 26 next year and might be the oldest in the classroom and yes it's a big deal for me because I don't think I have any respect for myself anymore.

What should be the right thing to do?

Please don't judge me. Please help me .

(25f) unemployed , dropped out of master's degree because I couldn't handle it anymore even if I was doing well in exams and everything. I never finished anything properly . I ran away from my home because I didn't want to go to school but somehow managed to complete school. My parents had to take me back home because I couldn't handle to stay in hostel during my bachelor's degree so they asked for permission from the college to grant me leave and complete my degree as a distance course where I only went to the college for exams . I just want want to disappear from this world I don't want to talk to anyone or think about anything. I don't care about anything I'm basically rotting away I hope i have a heart attack or some kind of accident and just sleep forever because I don't have the guts to commit su***de. I'm useless , can't talk to anyone , I can't even look at anyone , have no friends from college . I have no hope .

I want a friend who would listen to me I want to listen to them . I'm sick and tired of people pleasing just to keep certain people in my life This fear of being alone is killing me . I'm sick of everyone recognising me as the sad quite lonely girl who sits in the corner of every room I can't even talk to my family ,my sibling is narcissistic manipulative person who would somehow turn the conversation and make it about him . My mom just expects me to forget everything and move on . How am I supposed to do that ? I'm just existing, bed rotting and popping up anti depressants. I'm done with this life. I wish I would just disappear.

How do I actually stop comparing myself to everyone single person I've ever known? Why do I feel terrible when someone says "oh person X is doing so well in life " why do I take it so personaly. I know they worked hard to get their current life and I also know that they too have bad days meanwhile I'm just existing, bed rotting and popping anti depressants to get some sleep at night. Why am I like this? I can't even show some genuine happiness and love when people in my life show me something they're proud of .

Is a degree necessary for a product design job(entry level) or your portfolio is enough .does the portfolio have to be extraordinary for you to get selected? For better understanding give a rating on the scale of 1 to 10 how great does your portfolio have to be?

I've always been a little skeptical about the whole "follow your passion" and "do what you really love" advice .Yes some people have made a great life out of their passion especially the creative ones but is it really as great as the movies make it out to be? I know that the money aspect of it solely depends on the individual but is everyone who chooses to make a career out of their passion happy . Also like do they ever get bored of it now that they have to do it for a living rather than just as a hobby that they love ?