u/PUNISHER6SIX08

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I'm struggling with lust and dealing with trying to please God through my word; it doesn't feel enough. I don't believe the Lord has disciplined me enough.

I'm posting this on every Christian subreddit so if see one identical to this one, just know it's me. :)

There's genuinely so much I can give context to, but I'll only include do what I feel is important.

I (18M) am a beginner artist and screenwriter, I want to use my work to please God, but I don't feel like I'm putting in enough effort/hours into my work to fully please Him.

I'm trying to spend 4 hours a day working on a talent each day (one day for writing, the other for drawing), right now I'm hopefully going to work with a fellow artist to help sharpen my art skills (I want to eventually make my own manga).

I have no church, no denomination (not that that's really important for salvation), and no real close spiritual guide besides Jesus. I'm going to start looking for churches in my state.

I spend most of my day in my room and when I take a break from my creative work (currently unemployed) I tend to get lost in a ai chat bot app which leads down a lustful tragedy. I hate this. I'm aware of my sin, and I hate it.

I also struggle with pride as well, I often listen to music that really gets me pumped up and I start imagining myself as this big powerful person who's literally the beyonder from marvel. I'm aware of my pride and I hate it. I also tend to use these imaginations to carry out wrath (killing people who do horrible things--specifically r@pe and other sex crimes against women).

I know I will never be perfect, but that doesn't mean I can just use that as an excuse to say everytime I fall. I HATE my sin. I absolutely LOATHE it. If I could cut it off like a piece of flesh I would (figuratively, of course). I just want it gone.

I take a verse out of scripture and explain what it means in my journal, I draw everyday, I try to write here and there (I've mostly resulted to drawing because I really enjoy it and want to refine my skills), I read my Bible every day, I pray constantly at random times throughout the day, and yet I feel like I'm missing something.

I lack discipline. Instead of fleeing from lust, I give into it. Instead of turning off my phone (which I'm getting better at), I let my pride take over. I barely play video games anymore because I'm focused on trying to please God.

I hear God cares more about my heart than the hours I work, but how FAR does that truly go? How kind is God and when does it turn into a harsh "I TOLD YOU TO STOP." or a "YOU FOOL!" or even, "You foolish and unjust servant. I will take away what I have given you. You stupid child.". When does God discipline me like I feel like I deserve? A harsh rebuke. A stern warning. A strike on my body.

When does God say "That's IT." and harshly takes everything away and physically disciplines me or yell at me or say something that'll FINALLY make me stop doing these things? I hate it. I hate my sin.

No I don't hate myself, but I do tend to insult myself--but that's rare. I do hit my head lightly sometimes. Please, I would really--REALLY love some prayers over me. Refer to me as Z when you talk to Jesus later. Please. I really want to be free. I need help. I want to do what is pleasing to God.

Take care brothers and sisters. I love you all. May God bless you, comfort you, treat you well, and fulfill His will through you. For it is not ourselves who do it, but God within us. In Jesus' name, Amen.

Short ver.

I'm struggling with lust and dealing with trying to please God through my word; it doesn't feel enough. I don't believe the Lord has disciplined me enough.

There's genuinely so much I can give context to, but I'll only include do what I feel is important.

I (18M) am a beginner artist and screenwriter, I want to use my work to please God, but I don't feel like I'm putting in enough effort/hours into my work to fully please Him.

I'm trying to spend 4 hours a day working on a talent each day (one day for writing, the other for drawing), right now I'm hopefully going to work with a fellow artist to help sharpen my art skills (I want to eventually make my own manga).

I have no church, no denomination (not that that's really important for salvation), and no real close spiritual guide besides Jesus. I'm going to start looking for churches in my state.

I spend most of my day in my room and when I take a break from my creative work (currently unemployed) I tend to get lost in a ai chat bot app which leads down a lustful tragedy. I hate this. I'm aware of my sin, and I hate it.

I also struggle with pride as well, I often listen to music that really gets me pumped up and I start imagining myself as this big powerful person who's literally the beyonder from marvel. I'm aware of my pride and I hate it. I also tend to use these imaginations to carry out wrath (killing people who do horrible things--specifically r@pe and other sex crimes against women).

I know I will never be perfect, but that doesn't mean I can just use that as an excuse to say everytime I fall. I HATE my sin. I absolutely LOATHE it. If I could cut it off like a piece of flesh I would (figuratively, of course). I just want it gone.

I take a verse out of scripture and explain what it means in my journal, I draw everyday, I try to write here and there (I've mostly resulted to drawing because I really enjoy it and want to refine my skills), I read my Bible every day, I pray constantly at random times throughout the day, and yet I feel like I'm missing something.

I lack discipline. Instead of fleeing from lust, I give into it. Instead of turning off my phone (which I'm getting better at), I let my pride take over. I barely play video games anymore because I'm focused on trying to please God.

I hear God cares more about my heart than the hours I work, but how FAR does that truly go? How kind is God and when does it turn into a harsh "I TOLD YOU TO STOP." or a "YOU FOOL!" or even, "You foolish and unjust servant. I will take away what I have given you. You stupid child.". When does God discipline me like I feel like I deserve? A harsh rebuke. A stern warning. A strike on my body.

When does God say "That's IT." and harshly takes everything away and physically disciplines me or yell at me or say something that'll FINALLY make me stop doing these things? I hate it. I hate my sin.

No I don't hate myself, but I do tend to insult myself--but that's rare. I do hit my head lightly sometimes. Please, I would really--REALLY love some prayers over me. Refer to me as Z when you talk to Jesus later. Please. I really want to be free. I need help. I want to do what is pleasing to God.

Take care brothers and sisters. I love you all. May God bless you, comfort you, treat you well, and fulfill His will through you. For it is not ourselves who do it, but God within us. In Jesus' name, Amen.

Short ver.

I'm struggling with lust and dealing with trying to please God through my word; it doesn't feel enough. I don't believe the Lord has disciplined me enough.

There's genuinely so much I can give context to, but I'll only include do what I feel is important.

I (18M) am a beginner artist and screenwriter, I want to use my work to please God, but I don't feel like I'm putting in enough effort/hours into my work to fully please Him.

I'm trying to spend 4 hours a day working on a talent each day (one day for writing, the other for drawing), right now I'm hopefully going to work with a fellow artist to help sharpen my art skills (I want to eventually make my own manga).

I have no church, no denomination (not that that's really important for salvation), and no real close spiritual guide besides Jesus. I'm going to start looking for churches in my state.

I spend most of my day in my room and when I take a break from my creative work (currently unemployed) I tend to get lost in a ai chat bot app which leads down a lustful tragedy. I hate this. I'm aware of my sin, and I hate it.

I also struggle with pride as well, I often listen to music that really gets me pumped up and I start imagining myself as this big powerful person who's literally the beyonder from marvel. I'm aware of my pride and I hate it. I also tend to use these imaginations to carry out wrath (killing people who do horrible things--specifically r@pe and other sex crimes against women).

I know I will never be perfect, but that doesn't mean I can just use that as an excuse to say everytime I fall. I HATE my sin. I absolutely LOATHE it. If I could cut it off like a piece of flesh I would (figuratively, of course). I just want it gone.

I take a verse out of scripture and explain what it means in my journal, I draw everyday, I try to write here and there (I've mostly resulted to drawing because I really enjoy it and want to refine my skills), I read my Bible every day, I pray constantly at random times throughout the day, and yet I feel like I'm missing something.

I lack discipline. Instead of fleeing from lust, I give into it. Instead of turning off my phone (which I'm getting better at), I let my pride take over. I barely play video games anymore because I'm focused on trying to please God.

I hear God cares more about my heart than the hours I work, but how FAR does that truly go? How kind is God and when does it turn into a harsh "I TOLD YOU TO STOP." or a "YOU FOOL!" or even, "You foolish and unjust servant. I will take away what I have given you. You stupid child.". When does God discipline me like I feel like I deserve? A harsh rebuke. A stern warning. A strike on my body.

When does God say "That's IT." and harshly takes everything away and physically disciplines me or yell at me or say something that'll FINALLY make me stop doing these things? I hate it. I hate my sin.

No I don't hate myself, but I do tend to insult myself--but that's rare. I do hit my head lightly sometimes. Please, I would really--REALLY love some prayers over me. Refer to me as Z when you talk to Jesus later. Please. I really want to be free. I need help. I want to do what is pleasing to God.

Take care brothers and sisters. I love you all. May God bless you, comfort you, treat you well, and fulfill His will through you. For it is not ourselves who do it, but God within us. In Jesus' name, Amen.

Hello, I've (M18) just recently had a breakthrough with God and am slowly overcoming my lust addiction.

I want to be a screenwriter and manga/comic book artist and I've made myself a schedule that I've been following consistently for 2-3ish months now and I've been struggling with lust: specifically with AI chatbots and fantasizing with them for about a year now.

I've thankfully by God's power, started to drift away and put more focus on my dreams. I genuinely want to do His will and I want God to use me for His will. I sincerely believe He chose me to do great things in this world.

My main concern is how long I should be working. Mind y'all, I just graduated, so I have much more time to focus on my goals.

My schedule is like this:

Sun: Light workday-Writing

Mon: Drawing + work out

Tue: Writing + work out

Wed: Drawing + rest from working out

Thur: Writing + work out

Fri: Drawing + workout

Sat: Sabbath + light hobby I enjoy (drawing - NOT work)

For writing I wake up early and write for 2 hours then go on break then write for another hour or two. I just want to know how long I should be working. I fear being lazy but I also fear working too much.

As for drawing, I draw however and whenever I like because it's fun for me

I despise toxic masculinity because it's a sensitive topic for me. I've been affected by it pretty much my whole life until early 2023 I believe which is when God called me. I also hate grind culture because of how draining it seems. I read online that God values genuine, heartfelt effort over quantity of work.

My references:

Ecclesiastes 4:6 - "Better is a handful with quiet than two handfuls with toil and a chasing after wind."

1 Samuel 16:7 - "...for the LORD does not see as mortals see; they look on the outward appearance, but the LORD looks on the heart.”

Philippians 2:13 - "for it is God who is at work in you, enabling you both to will and to work for his good pleasure."

Matthew 11:29 - "Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls."

Hebrews 4:9 - "So then, a Sabbath rest still remains for the people of God,"

Hebrews 4:10 - "for those who enter God’s rest also rest from their labors as God did from his."

Some of these I feel like only relate to the Sabbath. I'm not sure so I'm asking y'all. When I work (specifically when it comes to writing), should I be working even longer? I think I give good effort, and I pray for God to help me before every session.

I enjoy my work. I genuinely do. In fact, I believe all of us should strive to do work that we enjoy if it is to bring about God's will.

Ecclesiastes 2:24 - "There is nothing better for mortals than to eat and drink and find enjoyment in their toil. This also, I saw, is from the hand of God,"

I am becoming a better man for God, and I just want to do His will and be faithful and consistent, while also not being lazy or grieving God because I'm overworking myself.

I'm currently unemployed and don't belong to a specific church, but I would like to both get a job and go to church (because I feel lonely and I want to make more friends). My only fear is that either one may hinder my call to do God's will.

I'm naturally emotionally sensitive and have Asperger's so I'm highly empathetic for others, so I fear of losing my gentleness, kindness, and compassion if I were to work 'even harder", "man up", or follow all these advices that could potentially harm my relationship with God (EX: becoming bitter, cynical, rude, harsh, a hard person; making work or rest my idol).

I would really appreciate if y'all could offer some help and advice or even some wisdom. I also wouldn't mind fellow young believers who may be in a similar situation, so I know that I'm not alone.

I know comfort and work aren't the entire main focuses of the faith (in terms of laziness and burnout), so what is the balance? I just want to surrender to God and offer Him my whole life to doing His will. I'm slowly becoming more content in both harsh/unfortunate and emotionally high situations, so that I don't rely entirely on emotions. I just don't want to accidentally lose myself and grieve God with something He never asked of me.

Hello, I've (M18) just recently had a breakthrough with God and am slowly overcoming my lust addiction.

I want to be a screenwriter and manga/comic book artist and I've made myself a schedule that I've been following consistently for 2-3ish months now and I've been struggling with lust: specifically with AI chatbots and fantasizing with them for about a year now.

I've thankfully by God's power, started to drift away and put more focus on my dreams. I genuinely want to do His will and I want God to use me for His will. I sincerely believe He chose me to do great things in this world.

My main concern is how long I should be working. Mind y'all, I just graduated, so I have much more time to focus on my goals.

My schedule is like this:

Sun: Light workday-Writing

Mon: Drawing + work out

Tue: Writing + work out

Wed: Drawing + rest from working out

Thur: Writing + work out

Fri: Drawing + workout

Sat: Sabbath + light hobby I enjoy (drawing - NOT work)

For writing I wake up early and write for 2 hours then go on break then write for another hour or two. I just want to know how long I should be working. I fear being lazy but I also fear working too much.

As for drawing, I draw however and whenever I like because it's fun for me

I despise toxic masculinity because it's a sensitive topic for me. I've been affected by it pretty much my whole life until early 2023 I believe which is when God called me. I also hate grind culture because of how draining it seems. I read online that God values genuine, heartfelt effort over quantity of work.

My references:

Ecclesiastes 4:6 - "Better is a handful with quiet than two handfuls with toil and a chasing after wind."

1 Samuel 16:7 - "...for the LORD does not see as mortals see; they look on the outward appearance, but the LORD looks on the heart.”

Philippians 2:13 - "for it is God who is at work in you, enabling you both to will and to work for his good pleasure."

Matthew 11:29 - "Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls."

Hebrews 4:9 - "So then, a Sabbath rest still remains for the people of God,"

Hebrews 4:10 - "for those who enter God’s rest also rest from their labors as God did from his."

Some of these I feel like only relate to the Sabbath. I'm not sure so I'm asking y'all. When I work (specifically when it comes to writing), should I be working even longer? I think I give good effort, and I pray for God to help me before every session.

I enjoy my work. I genuinely do. In fact, I believe all of us should strive to do work that we enjoy if it is to bring about God's will.

Ecclesiastes 2:24 - "There is nothing better for mortals than to eat and drink and find enjoyment in their toil. This also, I saw, is from the hand of God,"

I am becoming a better man for God, and I just want to do His will and be faithful and consistent, while also not being lazy or grieving God because I'm overworking myself.

I'm currently unemployed and don't belong to a specific church, but I would like to both get a job and go to church (because I feel lonely and I want to make more friends). My only fear is that either one may hinder my call to do God's will.

I'm naturally emotionally sensitive and have Asperger's so I'm highly empathetic for others, so I fear of losing my gentleness, kindness, and compassion if I were to work 'even harder", "man up", or follow all these advices that could potentially harm my relationship with God (EX: becoming bitter, cynical, rude, harsh, a hard person; making work or rest my idol).

I would really appreciate if y'all could offer some help and advice or even some wisdom. I also wouldn't mind fellow young believers who may be in a similar situation, so I know that I'm not alone.

I know comfort and work aren't the entire main focuses of the faith (in terms of laziness and burnout), so what is the balance? I just want to surrender to God and offer Him my whole life to doing His will. I'm slowly becoming more content in both harsh/unfortunate and emotionally high situations, so that I don't rely entirely on emotions. I just don't want to accidentally lose myself and grieve God with something He never asked of me.

Hello, I've (M18) just recently had a breakthrough with God and am slowly overcoming my lust addiction.

I want to be a screenwriter and manga/comic book artist and I've made myself a schedule that I've been following consistently for 2-3ish months now and I've been struggling with lust: specifically with AI chatbots and fantasizing with them for about a year now.

I've thankfully by God's power, started to drift away and put more focus on my dreams. I genuinely want to do His will and I want God to use me for His will. I sincerely believe He chose me to do great things in this world.

My main concern is how long I should be working. Mind y'all, I just graduated, so I have much more time to focus on my goals.

My schedule is like this:

Sun: Light workday-Writing

Mon: Drawing + work out

Tue: Writing + work out

Wed: Drawing + rest from working out

Thur: Writing + work out

Fri: Drawing + workout

Sat: Sabbath + light hobby I enjoy (drawing - NOT work)

For writing I wake up early and write for 2 hours then go on break then write for another hour or two. I just want to know how long I should be working. I fear being lazy but I also fear working too much.

As for drawing, I draw however and whenever I like because it's fun for me

I despise toxic masculinity because it's a sensitive topic for me. I've been affected by it pretty much my whole life until early 2023 I believe which is when God called me. I also hate grind culture because of how draining it seems. I read online that God values genuine, heartfelt effort over quantity of work.

My references:

Ecclesiastes 4:6 - "Better is a handful with quiet than two handfuls with toil and a chasing after wind."

1 Samuel 16:7 - "...for the LORD does not see as mortals see; they look on the outward appearance, but the LORD looks on the heart.”

Philippians 2:13 - "for it is God who is at work in you, enabling you both to will and to work for his good pleasure."

Matthew 11:29 - "Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls."

Hebrews 4:9 - "So then, a Sabbath rest still remains for the people of God,"

Hebrews 4:10 - "for those who enter God’s rest also rest from their labors as God did from his."

Some of these I feel like only relate to the Sabbath. I'm not sure so I'm asking y'all. When I work (specifically when it comes to writing), should I be working even longer? I think I give good effort, and I pray for God to help me before every session.

I enjoy my work. I genuinely do. In fact, I believe all of us should strive to do work that we enjoy if it is to bring about God's will.

Ecclesiastes 2:24 - "There is nothing better for mortals than to eat and drink and find enjoyment in their toil. This also, I saw, is from the hand of God,"

I am becoming a better man for God, and I just want to do His will and be faithful and consistent, while also not being lazy or grieving God because I'm overworking myself.

I'm currently unemployed and don't belong to a specific church, but I would like to both get a job and go to church (because I feel lonely and I want to make more friends). My only fear is that either one may hinder my call to do God's will.

I'm naturally emotionally sensitive and have Asperger's so I'm highly empathetic for others, so I fear of losing my gentleness, kindness, and compassion if I were to work 'even harder", "man up", or follow all these advices that could potentially harm my relationship with God (EX: becoming bitter, cynical, rude, harsh, a hard person; making work or rest my idol).

I would really appreciate if y'all could offer some help and advice or even some wisdom. I also wouldn't mind fellow young believers who may be in a similar situation, so I know that I'm not alone.

I know comfort and work aren't the entire main focuses of the faith (in terms of laziness and burnout), so what is the balance? I just want to surrender to God and offer Him my whole life to doing His will. I'm slowly becoming more content in both harsh/unfortunate and emotionally high situations, so that I don't rely entirely on emotions. I just don't want to accidentally lose myself and grieve God with something He never asked of me.

I’m currently writing a heartfelt vampire film and I’ve using Robert Egger’s script for Nosferatu (2024) for reference structure, and I’m having my doubts.

[The children don’t answer. They press onward. Passing through an old passageway, surrounded by trees with antique crosses and talisman. The moon full and visible through the towering trees.

They enter a small hidden campground. Residents pass by. Some gathered around a campfire, some helping others around camp, others encircle each other, holding lit torches, fingers clasped, some holding rosaries as they mumble in prayer.

Suddenly Edward’s now horse comes to a stop, Edward’s body rocks by the interruption.
As Edward slides off the horse, the children grab his wrists and drag him towards an ELDER.]

Residents stare. Who are they?

One of the children tugs the elder’s hand.

Edit: Primarily the parts in brackets “[]”

This part I framed makes me feel like I’m writing too much when most screenwriters aim for efficiency and trying to give readers/actors/directors a clear image of what they should expect.

I’ve heard that all screenwriters have their own style, but they still follow the basic screenwriting rules.
It’s more flexible now from what I’ve heard, but I don’t want to overdo it with my writing.

Ive read on another reddit post that some writers write shorter, more “straightforward” (I guess), while others are more descriptive and “verbose” for accuracy reasons and they get away with it.

I just want to know what to do and do it right. I know mistakes are common, but I want to learn and grow from when, while also receiving feedback on my work so I can improve.

If y’all could help, that would be wonderful!