What's meaning of begin Alive?
Okay Hi👋🏻🩷 I'm in my early 20s, still living with my family, with no job or financial independence. Every day I feel humiliated and emotionally drained. My family situation is very difficult. My father shows many traits of malignant narcissism and is emotionally abusive, while my mother often doesn't understand what I'm going through, even though she means well. When I was younger, I was much more motivated and determined. Now I feel like I'm just existing instead of living. I lose interest in almost everything I start, and I don't know if it's depression, anxiety, or something else. Seeing other people around my age enjoying life makes me wonder what's wrong with me. I want to be happy, find a job, fall in love, and actually live, but I feel stuck and don't know how to move forward. I've tried seeing psychologists before, but those experiences left me feeling disappointed. Right now I can't afford therapy either .Or for example, I wanted to be a gamer, but I'm shy and I don't have the facilities like a system and all that. I also like painting, but I like to design for my own enjoyment, not as a source of income. I like other arts too, but when I started them, I wasn't very keen on continuing them. I don't want to give up on life🥲I just don't know how to feel alive. Has anyone else been through something similar? How did you get through it?