u/PermissionLost9475

Not sure if anyone can relate with this.. It's been 37 years as a woman on this earth..

Tried to give 100% in every relationship... But realised it was my longing to have a family that lived.. They were not in love... I was chasing a feeling i wanted to live.. Was craving a home, was craving belongingness and was trying to fit in.. But one day things changed.. They stopped when i stopped reaching out.. Never been proposed in my life.. Nobody told i looked beautiful... Bo clue why nothing worked for me...

Lack of emotional warmth or bond will affect us negatively.. We will even start losing memory and focus..

Anybody had similar experience? Now, kind of accepted that i will fade like this without having much impact or presence in life.. It's such an emptiness...

I come under the spectrum. My problem is i easily get scared. I can manage on my own when i am alone... But when there is a group i easily fee threatened. Also, when they try to isolate me, i go so scared and feel like i could feel that fear in my chest... Does anyone else feel this?

I am woman who got much clarity about my life in her late 30s. I am 37 now. Working, planning my career ahead... Always thought i would be fne alone..

But, life lately gives me some thoughts. I feel like i need someone to feel home with, someone to share my life with and someone to have mundane conversations of daily life without getting bored...

I find emotional stability, responsibility about life in general sexy about men.. They should be older than me too.. And it should be a an acknowledged relationship in society.

So my question is, how about a woman like me starting to date, entering relationship, and settling down? As we age, we get more clarity about life and some people get tired of that relationship energy. I understand that..

In that case, will i be able to meet genuine people on dating apps and matrimonial sites?.

Or am I being a delulu? Can someone throw some light if i am being delulu.?

Guys, i am looking for a shop where i can get ready to wear saree in kochi. Can someone help? It's my first time..

I want to watch movies that happen in Arizona& Blue Ridge Parkway Roads type regions. It could be any genre.

Please suggest me a few good movies in the mentioned theme. I have a mood to watch something like that on rainy morning in my room..