u/Playful-Scientist945

I’m a 20-year-old girl who used to be a topper academically, but I was forced into a profession my parents wanted rather than one I chose for myself. Over time, I started failing in it, and it completely shattered my confidence and sense of identity. A few months ago, I survived a suicide attempt because education was the only thing that ever made me feel capable or hopeful, and once that pillar collapsed, I felt trapped in a toxic household with no way out.

My family environment has always been emotionally draining. “Family time” often feels like everyone ganging up on me, criticizing or mocking me, and even family trips become stressful rather than comforting. Since my attempt, I’ve been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts daily. Even simple things like getting out of bed or pretending to function normally feel exhausting. I constantly have to fight internally just to keep myself alive.

Lately, my parents have been heavily criticizing me for not doing enough chores around the house. Both my parents work full-time, and we already have a maid who washes the vessels and handles most cleaning. The chores I usually do involve cleaning up the kitchen after meals, organizing leftovers into containers, putting them in the fridge, and setting things up for later use. Meanwhile, my 17-year-old brother does almost nothing. He leaves his plates behind, spends most of his time roaming around the house, watching shows, or pretending to study, and only occasionally helps if my father specifically yells at him. Yet I’m the one constantly being blamed because I’m older and because I’m a girl.

What hurts more is that my mental health struggles are dismissed as “drama” or laziness. I was never given proper psychological help because my parents believe I’m faking my depression, and after years of being gaslit, I’ve started doubting my own reality and feelings too. When I get yelled at over chores, it genuinely worsens my suicidal thoughts. I’m not trying to weaponize depression to avoid responsibilities, I know everyone has duties, but I’m already struggling to survive mentally while also trying to study and rebuild my life.

My parents are financially stable enough to hire extra help if needed, but they refuse because they want to save money for my future dowry, something I never even asked for. Ironically, they also use that against me and imply that I’m a burden who “eats for free.”

At this point, I genuinely can’t tell whether I’m in the wrong anymore. I’ve been emotionally manipulated and invalidated for so long that I’ve lost confidence in my own judgment. I want an honest perspective: am I actually being unreasonable, or am I reacting like someone who is severely burnt out, depressed, and emotionally overwhelmed? And if I am handling things badly, how can I cope with this situation in a healthier way?

I’m a 20-year-old girl who used to be a topper academically, but I was forced into a profession my parents wanted rather than one I chose for myself. Over time, I started failing in it, and it completely shattered my confidence and sense of identity. A few months ago, I survived a suicide attempt because education was the only thing that ever made me feel capable or hopeful, and once that pillar collapsed, I felt trapped in a toxic household with no way out.

My family environment has always been emotionally draining. “Family time” often feels like everyone ganging up on me, criticizing or mocking me, and even family trips become stressful rather than comforting. Since my attempt, I’ve been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts daily. Even simple things like getting out of bed or pretending to function normally feel exhausting. I constantly have to fight internally just to keep myself alive.

Lately, my parents have been heavily criticizing me for not doing enough chores around the house. Both my parents work full-time, and we already have a maid who washes the vessels and handles most cleaning. The chores I usually do involve cleaning up the kitchen after meals, organizing leftovers into containers, putting them in the fridge, and setting things up for later use. Meanwhile, my 17-year-old brother does almost nothing. He leaves his plates behind, spends most of his time roaming around the house, watching shows, or pretending to study, and only occasionally helps if my father specifically yells at him. Yet I’m the one constantly being blamed because I’m older and because I’m a girl.

What hurts more is that my mental health struggles are dismissed as “drama” or laziness. I was never given proper psychological help because my parents believe I’m faking my depression, and after years of being gaslit, I’ve started doubting my own reality and feelings too. When I get yelled at over chores, it genuinely worsens my suicidal thoughts. I’m not trying to weaponize depression to avoid responsibilities , I know everyone has duties, but I’m already struggling to survive mentally while also trying to study and rebuild my life.

My parents are financially stable enough to hire extra help if needed, but they refuse because they want to save money for my future dowry, something I never even asked for. Ironically, they also use that against me and imply that I’m a burden who “eats for free.”

At this point, I genuinely can’t tell whether I’m in the wrong anymore. I’ve been emotionally manipulated and invalidated for so long that I’ve lost confidence in my own judgment. I want an honest perspective: am I actually being unreasonable, or am I reacting like someone who is severely burnt out, depressed, and emotionally overwhelmed? And if I am handling things badly, how can I cope with this situation in a healthier way?

I’m a 20-year-old girl who used to be a topper academically, but I was forced into a profession my parents wanted rather than one I chose for myself. Over time, I started failing in it, and it completely shattered my confidence and sense of identity. A few months ago, I survived a suicide attempt because education was the only thing that ever made me feel capable or hopeful, and once that pillar collapsed, I felt trapped in a toxic household with no way out.

My family environment has always been emotionally draining. “Family time” often feels like everyone ganging up on me, criticizing or mocking me, and even family trips become stressful rather than comforting. Since my attempt, I’ve been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts daily. Even simple things like getting out of bed or pretending to function normally feel exhausting. I constantly have to fight internally just to keep myself alive.

Lately, my parents have been heavily criticizing me for not doing enough chores around the house. Both my parents work full-time, and we already have a maid who washes the vessels and handles most cleaning. The chores I usually do involve cleaning up the kitchen after meals, organizing leftovers into containers, putting them in the fridge, and setting things up for later use. Meanwhile, my 17-year-old brother does almost nothing. He leaves his plates behind, spends most of his time roaming around the house, watching shows, or pretending to study, and only occasionally helps if my father specifically yells at him. Yet I’m the one constantly being blamed because I’m older and because I’m a girl.

What hurts more is that my mental health struggles are dismissed as “drama” or laziness. I was never given proper psychological help because my parents believe I’m faking my depression, and after years of being gaslit, I’ve started doubting my own reality and feelings too. When I get yelled at over chores, it genuinely worsens my suicidal thoughts. I’m not trying to weaponize depression to avoid responsibilities, I know everyone has duties, but I’m already struggling to survive mentally while also trying to study and rebuild my life.

My parents are financially stable enough to hire extra help if needed, but they refuse because they want to save money for my future dowry, something I never even asked for. Ironically, they also use that against me and imply that I’m a burden who “eats for free.”

At this point, I genuinely can’t tell whether I’m in the wrong anymore. I’ve been emotionally manipulated and invalidated for so long that I’ve lost confidence in my own judgment. I want an honest perspective: am I actually being unreasonable, or am I reacting like someone who is severely burnt out, depressed, and emotionally overwhelmed? And if I am handling things badly, how can I cope with this situation in a healthier way?

I’m a 20-year-old girl who used to be a topper academically, but I was forced into a profession my parents wanted rather than one I chose for myself. Over time, I started failing in it, and it completely shattered my confidence and sense of identity. A few months ago, I survived a suicide attempt because education was the only thing that ever made me feel capable or hopeful, and once that pillar collapsed, I felt trapped in a toxic household with no way out.

My family environment has always been emotionally draining. “Family time” often feels like everyone ganging up on me, criticizing or mocking me, and even family trips become stressful rather than comforting. Since my attempt, I’ve been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts daily. Even simple things like getting out of bed or pretending to function normally feel exhausting. I constantly have to fight internally just to keep myself alive.

Lately, my parents have been heavily criticizing me for not doing enough chores around the house. Both my parents work full-time, and we already have a maid who washes the vessels and handles most cleaning. The chores I usually do involve cleaning up the kitchen after meals, organizing leftovers into containers, putting them in the fridge, and setting things up for later use. Meanwhile, my 17-year-old brother does almost nothing. He leaves his plates behind, spends most of his time roaming around the house, watching shows, or pretending to study, and only occasionally helps if my father specifically yells at him. Yet I’m the one constantly being blamed because I’m older and because I’m a girl.

What hurts more is that my mental health struggles are dismissed as “drama” or laziness. I was never given proper psychological help because my parents believe I’m faking my depression, and after years of being gaslit, I’ve started doubting my own reality and feelings too. When I get yelled at over chores, it genuinely worsens my suicidal thoughts. I’m not trying to weaponize depression to avoid responsibilities, I know everyone has duties, but I’m already struggling to survive mentally while also trying to study and rebuild my life.

My parents are financially stable enough to hire extra help if needed, but they refuse because they want to save money for my future dowry, something I never even asked for. Ironically, they also use that against me and imply that I’m a burden who “eats for free.”

At this point, I genuinely can’t tell whether I’m in the wrong anymore. I’ve been emotionally manipulated and invalidated for so long that I’ve lost confidence in my own judgment. I want an honest perspective: am I actually being unreasonable, or am I reacting like someone who is severely burnt out, depressed, and emotionally overwhelmed? And if I am handling things badly, how can I cope with this situation in a healthier way?

Currently feeling very bad about myself and I really need something to come back and read every time I feel like a piece of shit.

Is there anyone who has given first attempt ca inter in Jan 2025 and still stuck here with any or both groups not cleared and not even pursuing bcom and doing ca inter full time and waiting to clear it before starting bcom?

Asking this to know if I am alone and took a stupid decision.

My first inter attempt was in Jan 2025. I cleared group 2 in May 2025 and from then on till now, I am stuck at group 1. Only God knows if I can clear groúp 1 in May 2026. I am pursuing bcom in distance education and haven't given a single sem exam yet.

My parents are now asking me to prepare for bcom exams. The problem is I am so study exhausted that even breaks aren't helping me recover. I did take small family vacations which are boring af before giving group 1 this may but that absolutely contributed nothing to my mental health.

My parents are the one who forced me into CA since one of my parents is a CA despite me getting a good state engineering college. Now my mom is insisting me to just clear bcom asap and take cat or something and choose mba.

Whereas, I don't wanna leave CA. Call me dumb, I feel like my whole personality revolves around here and I just can't drop it now. She treats me like a rag doll who she forces to study whatever the fuck she wants. First CA and now this.

I hate my parents. Call me entitled brat but I hate them. I can't stand myself looking at their faces while clearly hating them.

PS. :- I don't even know why I am writing this but got no big bro/sis. Any advice might help me. Thanks!

I have the weirdest family you would ever see.

Yesterday, I wanted to go to the theatre for a movie I’ve wanted to watch for a very long time but had to delay because of exams. My mom didn’t want to allow me to go to the theatre alone because, according to her, I would get harassed by guys sitting next to me.

The screen was literally partially empty when I was trying to book tickets, and even then it bothered her because apparently “some random guy can shift his seat and harass me.” But at the same time, even if the theatre was fully booked, she still wouldn’t allow it because then “a guy would definitely sit next to me.” She herself said this.

For context, I am freaking 20 years old.

Meanwhile, my 16-year-old brother went alone to watch his favorite movie with zero issues.

And no, before anyone thinks it’s some sketchy muttu sandhu theatre — it’s literally a very decent one inside a well-reputed mall where cringe wannabe couples don’t make out and use it like an OYO.

My mom stopped speaking to me for a couple of days because I rebelled over this, and honestly I feel like I deserved that movie after sacrificing so much for this exam.

In the end, my dad accompanied me. But he clearly didn’t like the movie, which I already knew because it isn’t his favorite genre. Throughout the movie, he just sat next to me like a starfish with zero expressions or reactions. No discussions after the movie, nothing. He basically felt like a driver who dropped me, watched the movie for the sake of it, and picked me back up without a word.

Meanwhile, I was awkwardly trying my best to start conversations during and after the movie, but halfway through I realized it wasn’t going to work, so I just stopped.

And if you ask me why I didn’t go with friends — that’s a whole separate story and probably needs another post by itself.

Initially, I thought of taking my brother because he would actually match my vibes and we would’ve genuinely enjoyed it together. But apparently he wants to go to another movie releasing next week, and according to my parents, we can’t go for both.

And before anyone thinks this is because we’re financially unstable — no. We are not. I could literally stop studying and my next five generations could still eat comfortably. I’m not saying this to boast, but to give a clear picture of my situation.

I just really wanted to rant and get this off my chest. Genuinely praying to God for a good in-laws family someday because mine is honestly so weird.

And this is just ONE out of many stupid situations, in case anyone thinks I’m overreacting.

PS: Please don’t DM me with questions. If you have anything to ask, comment here and I’ll try to answer.

And, yes, I used AI to redraft this but this is super true 😭😭

I have the weirdest family you would ever see.

Yesterday, I wanted to go to the theatre for a movie I’ve wanted to watch for a very long time but had to delay because of exams. My mom didn’t want to allow me to go to the theatre alone because, according to her, I would get harassed by guys sitting next to me.

The screen was literally partially empty when I was trying to book tickets, and even then it bothered her because apparently “some random guy can shift his seat and harass me.” But at the same time, even if the theatre was fully booked, she still wouldn’t allow it because then “a guy would definitely sit next to me.” She herself said this.

For context, I am freaking 20 years old.

Meanwhile, my 16-year-old brother went alone to watch his favorite movie with zero issues.

And no, before anyone thinks it’s some sketchy muttu sandhu theatre — it’s literally a very decent one inside a well-reputed mall where cringe wannabe couples don’t make out and use it like an OYO.

My mom stopped speaking to me for a couple of days because I rebelled over this, and honestly I feel like I deserved that movie after sacrificing so much for this exam.

In the end, my dad accompanied me. But he clearly didn’t like the movie, which I already knew because it isn’t his favorite genre. Throughout the movie, he just sat next to me like a starfish with zero expressions or reactions. No discussions after the movie, nothing. He basically felt like a driver who dropped me, watched the movie for the sake of it, and picked me back up without a word.

Meanwhile, I was awkwardly trying my best to start conversations during and after the movie, but halfway through I realized it wasn’t going to work, so I just stopped.

And if you ask me why I didn’t go with friends — that’s a whole separate story and probably needs another post by itself.

Initially, I thought of taking my brother because he would actually match my vibes and we would’ve genuinely enjoyed it together. But apparently he wants to go to another movie releasing next week, and according to my parents, we can’t go for both.

And before anyone thinks this is because we’re financially unstable — no. We are not. I could literally stop studying and my next five generations could still eat comfortably. I’m not saying this to boast, but to give a clear picture of my situation.

I just really wanted to rant and get this off my chest. Genuinely praying to God for a good in-laws family someday because mine is honestly so weird.

And this is just ONE out of many stupid situations, in case anyone thinks I’m overreacting.

PS: Please don’t DM me with questions. If you have anything to ask, comment here and I’ll try to answer. And, yes, I used AI to redraft this but this is super true 😭😭

Have my group 1 exams tomorrow and I feel like running away from home and absolutely have no ounce of energy to write a single word. Group 1 ruined my life. Trying to clear it for a long time and I just can't. No matter what.