u/Powerchordman

All my days are numbered
Everyday repeat the same routine
Shuffling into a desperate state
Everyday repeat the same mistake
Stuck in an artificial limbo
Can anyone save me
I fear it’s already too late

All the days bleeding into the next
Life has lost its meaning
Cannot let go
Of all consuming pain
Come closer
Can you feel the heat
Lose it to myself
Lost it all again
Can you handle disgrace
Amongst the rubble
Of perpetual defeat

Hopeless quest to find
Another way to heal myself
But I cannot calm
this bitter fucking mind
Can’t even begin
To explain this hell

These shaking hands
Have lost their touch
And these fearful eyes
Have seen too much

Endless torrents of rain
Endless torment again
Beneath the pavement
Earth cries out in pain
Suffocating and drowning
Arms stretched out in vain
Soils song deep lament

If life could be whatever I wanted
Then why does it feel so far away
My time has come
death lurks in the shadows
I’m counting hours again
Yearning for some sanctity
Waiting for this to end

Unending war
Inside my head
Paranoia
Deciding my dread
Paving
the path ahead

I’m marked by constant failure
And the fear that goes along
What the hell is wrong with me
And I thrive on this bullshit
It makes it all go away

What happened to me
I cannot explain the way I feel
As every day brings me down
To their level again
How much more can I take
What happened to me
Am I already dead

Gruntruck - Push (1992, 2022)

Acid Bath - When the Kite String Pops (1994/2014 5th pressing)

Ministry - Filth Pig (MOV, 1996/2016)

Balaam and The Angel - Live Free or Die (1988)

Soundgarden - Superunkown (1994/2014)