[M17] Plagued by Insecure Fantasies.
I’ve always had quite the knack for creating elaborate fantasies— especially fantasies of infidelity. I’ve been in a relationship “long-distance” for little over a year now. It’s been rough at times, but we’re fairly strong in our commitment to each other. I’ll still sweat through my shirt each time she goes out with her friends. It’s even worse that she’s located in the middle of a forest; horrendous WiFi connection that disables her cellular connection the second she steps out of her home. It’s completely dead the entire time she’s anywhere else but her own home.
I’ve been even more anxious tonight. She’s been at her own house, hanging out with one of her friends, while I was visiting my Aunt. We’ve been texting each-other fairly frequently, except about two hours ago her phone went dead— no messages going through, location off, etc. This’ll only happen under two circumstances: her phones dead or she’s outside her house. If her phone dies, she could simply plug it back in; which leads me to the question of why she hasn’t plugged in her phone for two hours, especially right after we had been texting each other. She’s not just going to hang out with her friend in the silence of the room. She’s got too busy herself, otherwise she’ll turn to social media for entertainment.
I’m not sure where she’d be. She’s got some interesting friends— the kind that would give up their dog for some booze and a night out. It’s not entirely out of the realm of possibility she’s run off to a party with her friends. It would be completely reasonable, if she had messaged me before she left. I haven’t gotten a message, though. I’m very anxious. I’ve got a million little things running through my head right now. I don’t know how to handle it. I don’t see myself being satisfied with any explanation as to why she’d be gone from her phone for two hours— especially since my messages aren’t going through. I’m very insecure. I’m seeking some advice here, maybe some words of wisdom from people who have more life experience than me; average reddit inquiry. Please help me.