I miss a friend
I was always the anxious person in the relationship with my ex and he was avoidant, but at the beginning it was opposite, idk how it changed from me becoming anxious, To a point i got nervous overdrive and it ended somehow thank god.
I found a good man who i actually liked and admired for a while but, the day we talked entirely, I realised how much I started liking him because he genuinely felt like the connection I needed, the balance my heart was aching for, but I just told him I was getting drained because he talks less, Now i cant understand if that was the case or Did i actually made it up, then he said he respects and understands me and thats what he repeated over and over again, I genuinely dont know why I would block him and tell him he was draining, even though I enjoyed our conversation :). We bothbonded over our little siblings and what not , whenever i’d say I wont talk over, we would have our funny moments going on, Me asking him to call me daddy even though I’m a female. I genuinely didnt miss my avoidant ex even after dating him for 1.5 years, but this guy that I hoped to see something with? I miss him so much, it genuinely aches, I want him to reach our to me like he always does in the name of a meme, or just some excuse.
why did i block him? I really want him in my life