u/PrizeProfessional923

It's a long story, but my mom does the following. I just want a clear answer if im overreacting or being abused

• Yells at me over small things
• Never cares about my important priorities (family-related, personal goals, etc)
• Shames me in front of others (Calling me dumb and not legitimate)
• Makes me clean and study ONLY
• If I try to sit down for rest, I get in trouble (except for sleeping)
• If I try to use a computer/tv, I get in trouble
• If I try to do something for my entertainment (play a video game, watch TV, do something fun), I get yelled at
• Every time she does something wrong, she blames it on me somehow
• If I'm sick/hur,t I GET IN TROUBLE
• Any mistake I make will take a toll on my life, apparently
• I get discorugaed and and put down continuously
• My mom gossips about how "bad" I am
• she guilts trips my family into hating me (they believe it)
• I have to live a perfect lifestyle,e or else I get screamed at
• If I ask for anything, I get in literal trouble
• If she's in a bad mood, I'm the one to blame
• ALWAYS ANGRY AT ME
• I have no privacy or whatnot at this age
• I can't close bathroom or room doors, let alone lock them
• I literally get no privacy whenI'mm changing / naked
• can't choose what I wear
• I can't follow modern trends
• If I talk back, I get in trouble with my whole family like it's a crime. I don't get to make my own decisions
• I'm told I'm immature and not ready
• I don't get personal freedom
• I can't buy any clothing that I want
• I can't choose what things I want
• THERE IS A LOT MORE, BUT I CAN'T NAME THEM ALL RIGHT NOW

It's a long story, but my mom does the following. I just want a clear answer if im overreacting or being abused

• Yells at me over small things
• Never cares about my important priorities (family-related, personal goals, etc)
• Shames me in front of others (Calling me dumb and not legitimate)
• Makes me clean and study ONLY
• If I try to sit down for rest, I get in trouble (except for sleeping)
• If I try to use a computer/tv, I get in trouble
• If I try to do something for my entertainment (play a video game, watch TV, do something fun), I get yelled at
• Every time she does something wrong, she blames it on me somehow
• If I'm sick/hur,t I GET IN TROUBLE
• Any mistake I make will take a toll on my life, apparently
• I get discorugaed and and put down continuously
• My mom gossips about how "bad" I am
• she guilts trips my family into hating me (they believe it)
• I have to live a perfect lifestyle,e or else I get screamed at
• If I ask for anything, I get in literal trouble
• If she's in a bad mood, I'm the one to blame
• ALWAYS ANGRY AT ME
• I have no privacy or whatnot at this age
• I can't close bathroom or room doors, let alone lock them
• I literally get no privacy whenI'mm changing / naked
• can't choose what I wear
• I can't follow modern trends
• If I talk back, I get in trouble with my whole family like it's a crime. I don't get to make my own decisions
• I'm told I'm immature and not ready
• I don't get personal freedom
• I can't buy any clothing that I want
• I can't choose what things I want
• THERE IS A LOT MORE, BUT I CAN'T NAME THEM ALL RIGHT NOW

(13M) I have an unhealthy fear of lace. When I'm near it, I don't feel well (like my body); I stop breathing, cry out, and distance myself. When I touch lace, I throw up a few times, repeatedly wash my hands, and cry. I don't know why, because I don't have trypophobia. Therapists and doctors don't know why I have this hate. Small or big quantities, I can't STAND it. I tried exposure therapy (touching lace), and I end up having some sort of health-related issue (dizziness, throwing up, not breathing). For the past like 5 years (I'm a teen), I've tried to fix it, and nothing works, even therapy. Does anyone know why I am like this? The second I just see it, a dont feel good, and I feel nauseous and sick; sometimes I get a fever even if I see it. If I touch it, I usually cry, get disgusted, and throw up. I have literally no thought process; I just have an instant "ew, I can't stand it." It's an instinct. I have tested for autism, negative results. I don't have any thread, shoelaces, or knit material. Doilies yes. Ruffles sometimes. This feeling is individual. It's so specific, and there is no phobia name, so I think it's a "specific phobia". I have tried many therapy, no came, even phobia therapists. My family is so tired of me too.

(13M) I have an unhealthy fear of lace. When I'm near it, I don't feel well (like my body); I stop breathing, cry out, and distance myself. When I touch lace, I throw up a few times, repeatedly wash my hands, and cry. I don't know why, because I don't have trypophobia. Therapists and doctors don't know why I have this hate. Small or big quantities, I can't STAND it. I tried exposure therapy (touching lace), and I end up having some sort of health-related issue (dizziness, throwing up, not breathing). For the past like 5 years (I'm a teen), I've tried to fix it, and nothing works, even therapy. Does anyone know why I am like this? The second I just see it, a dont feel good, and I feel nauseous and sick; sometimes I get a fever even if I see it. If I touch it, I usually cry, get disgusted, and throw up. I have literally no thought process; I just have an instant "ew, I can't stand it." It's an instinct. I have tested for autism, negative results. I don't have any thread, shoelaces, or knit material. Doilies yes. Ruffles sometimes. This feeling is individual. It's so specific, and there is no phobia name, so I think it's a "specific phobia". I have tried many therapy, no came, even phobia therapists. My family is so tired of me too.

(13M) I have an unhealthy fear of lace. When I'm near it, I don't feel well (like my body), I stop breathing, cry out, and distance myself. When I touch lace, I throw up a few times, repeatedly wash my hands, and cry. I don't know why, because I don't have trypophobia. Therapists and doctors don't know why I have this hate. Small or big quantities, I can't STAND it. I tried exposure therapy (touching lace), and I end up having some sort of health-related issue (dizziness, throwing up, not breathing). For the past like 5 years (I'm a teen), I've tried to fix it, and nothing works, even therapy. Does anyone know why I am like this.

guys, I have an 8th-grade poem project. Y'all, tell me if it is at least acceptable

From a Single Grain of Sand

My impact was never grand,
Neither extravagant, majestic, nor sublime,
Nor was it celebrated by the crowd,
Untouched by praise or fame.
It started minutely,
Like a single grain of sand.

When I first tread into middle school
I felt the heavy weight of the air.
I was frozen,
Dreading,
Waiting.

As the days staggered by, I helped someone.
The smile and the warmth of gratitude
Kindled a spark, something deep within,
Flooding the dark with warmth.

Obstacles did occur-
The weight of social pressure,
Chasing grades,
The routine of school itself.
Yet, there was always room for kindness.

Throughout these halls
I gently scattered my positivity throughout the days.
Smiles, guidance,
And quiet grace.

Now, standing on the edge of leaving,
I trace the footprint I left behind.
Quiet, reserved,
But blindingly clear to me.

What I leave behind in school isn’t grand,
But it is the smallest, quietest brushstrokes
That paints the most beautiful picture.

What began as a grain of sand
Had bloomed into a beautiful beach,
A sanctuary of kindness, positivity, and love.