u/ProfessionalPale8999

so i'm 15 and it has been a bit better lately, i have been using it less. But one addiction just turned into a relapse of another one and I don't know how to stop it. I'm way too embarassed to tell my therapist, only one of my friends knows about this. But every time I don't use it for longer than a week I feel so god damn lonely. And I don't mean "oh i wish i had a bf" kind of loneliness, no, I mean gut wrenching loneliness that makes me cry at night because I do feel unlovable. I think that if i had a bf who actually saw me as a real boy and not a girl cosplaying a guy, I would be able to quit, or at least it would be easier. Idk, I live in such a transphobic enviroment that someone making me feel valid and loved would genuienly help so much. (i'm sorry if it's incoherent english isn;t my first language)

so, i'm 15 (already makes it sound like a non-issue but whatever). So I have been really close with this one guy since maybe 2023/early2024?? We were really close but in september last year we had an arguement. Basically I distanced myself bcs I was in a rly bad place mentally and I didn't have the energy. After that I apologized, he said it was fine and we moved on. Ofc it hasn't been the same ever since, but it was okay. But recently he has been very mean to me, and I mean it. Laughing at everything I do, at the way I look, I talk (i have a speech disorder so i stutter a lot and slur my words sometimes), my interests etc. And no, this isn't just "friendly banter". Today every person in our class left bcs they didn't want to attend the last two classes. I asked my mother to go home too as I didn;t want to stay in school for classes where we wouldn't do anything anyway. When I told him that, he got mad, said "whatever go away i don't like you anymore". Now smth about him is that he is autistic, and I have ADHD, and I can never tell whether he is being sarcastic or no. But both yesterday and today he has been extra mean to me so I just did what he said: I left the school without waiting for him. The two classes were eventually cancelled due to the fact that no one was left to attend them, so he left school early too. I didn't text him afterwards because I'm mad at him for how he reacted, but he is also my only close friend in the class, and other than him I only have a friend in the class above us. I don't know if I should end this relationship. I have been in many toxic friendships in the past and it affected me a lot so i'm not sure if it would be the right thing to do. At the same time, I only have two years of high school left and after that I wouldn't have to talk to him. But what he's been doing these past few weeks is exhausting for me mentally and I don't know how much longer I can take it.

hi, i'm 15(ftm), Polish, and there is a few questions that I wanted to ask, I figured this would be a good place to do so

1. Do you get periods when you're on T?

2. How long do you need someone to help you with day-to-day life after top surgery?

3. This is a bit more specific, but can you go on T when you have hypothyroidism?

4. Is it okay to change my chosen name a few times? I already did once bc the first one didn't really sit with me right, and the one i'm using right now doesn't either, but I don't want to annoy my friends by changing it again