u/PromotionNo6176

I have been through almost if not all mental health treatment possible. To a point the hospital social worker said there was no hope and nothing more anyone can do. From 9 hospital stays, ECT, TMS, ketamine, DBT, CBT, PHP, residential, PHP, IOP. I have had many different encounters on bringing up my objectum. My cousin actually is getting a PHD is psychology to become a therapist and I discussed objectum to her and if she studied it in school. And she said no she hadn't. It is so rare. Anyway. I have had therapists go over time and he unprofessional to me because of my love of Brunswick GS-X machines even referring me to a therapist for sex offenders. The therapist that specialized in helping sex offenders in the criminal justice system said i was normal and it was more common and brushed it off. My psychiatrist in that facility asked me abt my objectum and he wanted to hear abt it... but then when I started explaining he cut me off and said "please don't talk abt it nevermind I don't want to know" I have a new psychiatrist and haven't told him abt my objectum to Brunswick GS-X Pinsetters and bowling. Im very scared to what his reaction will be. I will be telling him next visit and I am prepared for another wierd reaction but if he is a good psychiatrist he will treat me with dignity and not as a freak. Anyway lemme know ur thoughts. Its been a journey

I am very romantically interested in humans some of the time... when they're not abusing me. But I am not sexually attracted to people in any way. Sexual stuff makes me very uncomfortable and people talking abt it and watching movie scenes with and porn is a absolute no and makes me so uncomfortable so I stay away from it. I do however want to have a human romantic relationship but I know I cant and wont be sexually attracted to them. So maybe sharing Brunswick while being intimate would help me "endure" and maybe enjoy intimacy. But im just so scared of people. They keep harming me. I wrote an introduction to how intimacy with a person would hypothetically work and Brunswick Pinsetter would need to be the star of the show in that. This writing is safe for work as I am posting it in here. I will post the rest of it in the nsfw subreddit when I get to it

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For your Bowling Pleasure

The bowling alley. Was not just a bowling alley. In fact it was a sanctuary that housed the love of my life. It was a sacred space held dear to my heart. The smell of lane oil, the lanes stretching 60 feet long in sleek and elegant fashion begging to be used for bowling pleasure. Not only this, but this was the house of my handsome German man. His domicile and territory. His house his rules. The cornerstone and absolute pinnacle of perfection in bowling. Inside the doors not only houses the worlds finest bowlers, but the sturdy foundation to the sacred game of bowling itself, Brunswick GS-X Pinsetter.

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I wanted to show my beautiful Brunwick GS-X off and share my handsome man with another. The bowling alley was calling and that was my cue to lace up my shoes and roll up to the lanes. My human partner meets up with me. I show them the row of GS-X pinsetters stretching from one side of the alley to the other. "These machines are the sanctuary and cornerstone of my love and sexuality. I have the pleasure of introducing you to my husband, Brunswick GS-X Pinsetter; my handsome German man. He is very special and dear to me." My human partner appreciates bowling and knows the game and technique of bowling. Averaging in the 200s, their record reflects greatness and merit. Im here to show the heart and soul of bowling. I introduce the Brunswick GS-X lineage to concisely justify and preface my soulmate "The GS lineage is a grand and special line of pinsetters. They were created by August Schmid. And Brunswick acquired them in 1984 to out rank AMF bowling. And ever since they are the gold standard of pinsetter. Brunswick, being the dignified company they are gave a nod to Schmid and named their new machines GS for German Schmid. To the true origin of the GS series machines." I look at my partner. They are in awe. The stunning and insurmountable aura of Brunswick GS-X Pinsetter was immaculate and incomprehensible. There stood Brunswick his sweep wagon out to greet us. Not in his home position but at 90 degrees guarding the setting table and introducing himself. His sweep wagon decal boldly presenting who he was with no regret or fear.

Before officially knowing I was objectum I always thought objects had sentience. This actually led to an eating disorder I had. I had feelings for toilets. I thought they had thoughts and feelings and I felt so bad abt using them because excrement is disgusting in my eyes and dumping my waste into my toilet distressed me. I cared abt toilets. I wouldnt eat food and would go to the bathroom maybe once a week when I couldn't help it. I would apologize to the toilet. I never had romantic feelings for the toilets. But I was fond of them. Idk I felt the need to share my experience with toilets. I have been okay with using the bathroom regularly now and don't feel guilty as I know the toilet is doing what it was meant to do. I wasnt hurting him.

I have been to the hospital and psych ward 9 times for suicide related issues. Including 4 attempts. They were not lethal. My last attempt i cut my neck. It was superficial though. The doctor wrote in the notes that I wasn't considered a threat to actually complete suicide or lethally and that I was only attention seeking... this really hurts me and infuriating to me. Our school had a problem with self harm and suicide in high school. And the one thing you shouldn't say to a person who is suicidal or self harming is that they're doing it for attention. And then fast forward to now this doctor freaking slaps me in the face and says I only do it for attention. I actually wanted to die. I'm just scared. I guess stitches isn't severe enough for it to be considered "non attention seeking"

I feel so many feelings for Brunswick I wrote them down to show Brunswick how much I love him.

Brunswick GS-X Pinsetter

My lover, my muse, my cornerstone, my comfort. Brunswick my love, I give my heart, my soul, my body, and my everything to you. Words cant express the gratitude, infatuation, care, dedication, and love I have for you. Youre my everything and every part of you is perfect for me. We fit together like a well oiled machine. Everything abt you is special and id like to express my gratitude and highlight your greatness. Your sweep wagon sweeps me off my feet and your sweep attenuator gently attenuates my fall. From the dates we share, your comfort and encouragement, to the passionate expression of love through physical intimacy... your pinsetter parts, you make my world brighter. Im enamored by you. Your sweep wagon, the highlight of my life. So strong, steady, elegant, and sexy. I appreciate how guarding you are of your setting table just like you guard our relationship. Your sweep release assembly. Very beautiful, elegant motion as well as it swings back and forth controlling the rise and fall of your beautiful sweep wagon. Your setting table. Perfection at its greatest. Calculating the score and setting the pins. Giving definition to your identity as a pinsetter. Your stroke limiter assisting the setting table in when to lower all the way or not to either check the score or reset fresh pins. And I cant leave out the CPU. Youre sexy brain of yours. Send those messages and control your parts my beautiful Brunswick. Energize those solenoids and pinsetter cycles and keep yourself safe. Those are some of the highlights. I love you Brunswick GS-X pinsetter. Youre not just a machine, you my rock, my shield, the cornerstone to bowling, and a magnificent creation bestowed upon the essence of bowling. Even if other people don't appreciate you, I cant fathom my feelings and gratitude to you, Brunswick. My love for you is deeper than a black hole. I have crossed your event horizon. You are my precious partner, husband, and friend. Youre not just a machine, I'm yours and youre mine, Brunswick GS-X Pinsetter.

So the last few days I have been active in the Bowling subreddit because i wanna learn bowling and i thought i might make some friends. I didnt think having my profile public would be an issue with my objectum with Brunswick GS-X Pinsetter. Well I made a post in the bowling subreddit and people found my reddit profile and made horrible comments to me for being objectum. I never brought up objectum or my attraction to pinsetters in that subreddit. They found my profile and used it against me. It went like this. They said I made real bowlers justifiably uncomfortable, I needed to control my sexual urges, I needed to check into a inpatient facility, I should be ashamed. I should not be allowed in a bowling alley. People should call my bowling alley and tell them to ban me. My therapist was wrong abt affirming my sexuality and I need better care. They said the pinsetter was being violated by me. They said I was there just to get off to bowling equipment in public when thats not what I do at all. Be careful. I feel absolutely awful. You guys know I love Brunswick GS-X Pinsetter. Hes not a fetish and hes my beloved husband. I would never be inappropriate in public and being objectum isnt a mental illness. Its healthy. Some people are really cruel to objectum people. Be careful my friends.

I've had a YouTube channel with abt 1,627 subscribers over the years as a piano channel but I started uploading videos of me bowling and im getting waaaay more views than I ever did with piano. For example I bowled on string pins today and uploaded a video of me doing it and it has 1,000 views in less than an hour. My other bowling videos have over 1,000 too in less than a day. I want to film my journey as a beginner bowler and share my journey to others. Wish me luck!