Pretty much half the year is already over and I still remember last christmas as if it was yesterday. I havent done anything this year besides writing 300 applications that went nowhere and going to psychiatry for 2 months.
Time just goes faster and faster. You bedrot a bit and the whole week is already over again.
Was it because you are disabled or because you cant find a women in your life or because you are neurodivergent?
For me it was actually because nobody ever wanted me. For some reason no matter how many times I applied (hundreds of times btw) and how many interviews I got, I simply never landed a job.
Maybe HR people realize I am schizophrenic or I dont have that inner desire to be a wagecuck or because another candidate was simply always better then me...I just dont know, they never tell.
Its been a year now since my last psychosis and I can still not forget the content of it. For once I thought I was fighting these terrorists and even now I remember having fought terrorists another thing about it was hallucinations of driving in a car with policemen and following criminals around. I even gave them names.
I also started remembering a psychotic episode I had years ago where I made Zodiacs of words like the Zodiac killer did.
I cannot forget about it and it furthermore drives me insane. Medication only does it so I dont have more psychotic episodes, but it doesnt make me forget what I lived through.
Its crazy how many job rejections Ive had throughout my life. I applied over and over again and never got a job until even now.
Applying doesnt do anything for me even with a degree and good grades.
Ive been rejected some 700 times by now if I include all applications I wrote from age 19 to 27. (I didnt write any while in college).
I used to doomscroll youtube a ton the past years, now I barely watch videos anymore.
For one it seems like I simply watched all the videos. I used to watch mostly doomer content and how bad the economy is videos. Now theres nothing left.
Nothing but AI slop, which is the next reason I dont contribute to watching videos.
These days i usually just scroll reddit.
Ive spoken hundreds of spells but no coven would take me (even if I got a scroll from Hogwarts). Now I am remaining in my cave, without a horse and also no witch is interested in a jobless Wizard.
Just a lonesome spellcaster with - seemingly - no future. 🔮
Im at 313 job applications for mostly warehouse jobs but also other stuff like data entry, retail, accounting, bookkeeping, server administration and even applied to the army.
I have a degree in STEM buuuuuuut I am still jobless.
I managed to land ~50 interviews so I get like a interview for every 6 applications. But still i have managed to seemingly fail every interview and I honestly was NOT BAD, I was usually prepared and stayed calm and collected, sometimes my interviewer had a good time and I made them happy, but still 0 job offers!
This is the first year in 3 years where I have applied this much but I am still NEET.
Theres not that many jobs in and around the city that I live, I dont have a car (obviously) and already apply to firms that are 1+ hour away per train and bus. And I can not like pack my things and move apartments because I just moved back into my parents home a few months ago.
I really wanna know HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU APPLIED THIS YEAR AND ARE YOU ALSO STILL NEET?