u/Radiant_Muscle3034

(when i mention "love" I mean it in a romantic sense, I'm aware that's not the only kind of love) just venting, it's been 5 months. It has gotten a bit easier, not less painful but different. Being a gay trans man feels like a cruel joke sometimes, like we exist to be fetishised for a year at most but when it comes to love we're worthless..

Had sex with someone recently and he seemed nice but he ghosted me. we had a nice date and the conversation was good, made each other laugh but I guess he wants something different and that's ok, just would've helped to know his intentions from the start. Maybe I shouldn't have had sex with him so quickly but it feels like sex is all people want me for, so I may as well give the people what they want.

It's less that i miss the person who broke up with me 5 months ago (though I do) and more that I feel like love is even harder for men like me to experience and impossible to keep.

I want to believe that love could exist for me, but with the trans thing and many other issues that will take many years and lots of money I don't have to fix, this is probably as good as it gets. I don't know, it gets to me sometimes. I know I should give up and focus on myself, but I dreamed of being a husband, building a home and a life with someone I love and it sucks to grieve a future I never had a chance to have.

my mum has emphysema, she cannot exercise and won't quit smoking. her health is already bad so I don't think she'll live much longer. I went back to college, took an ABE course. I worked so hard, I tried and I studied and worked the whole time and I still failed. now I won't be anything by the time my mum dies. I'll have to be her carer and watch her whither away to nothing. and that will be the peak of my life. I'm an idiot for not killing myself the last time things were bad. why would I think this would be any different? I am a parasite on resources and that's all I will ever be. I can't decide if I should kill myself now or wait until my mum is dead. I don't want her to see me die first but I can't handle being her carer and we can't afford outside help.

struggling with this one set of homework from my ABE course, what I can't understand is the rules surrounding borrowing. I'm pretty good at simple column multiplication but when it comes to subtraction I'm lost. Hard to explain since I can't add a picture, but the first example is 406-213 which is 193. If anyone could explain the process to me that would be really great! thanks!

Hi everyone! picked my modded dsi back up the other day and loving it, but for some reason, dsi exclusive games won't boot? not sure what the issue is since regular ds and gba games run fine but I was hoping someone's been through similar. cheers!

We broke up in February, since then I've been thinking about things and eventually realised that he never loved me romantically, maybe as a friend, but not a partner. we're still friends, but I was clinging onto the hope that just maybe we would get back together. Now I feel like it was all a lie or maybe he didn't know or i was too dumb to see it. I've lost all faith in romantic relationships now, I was ready to go to the end with him and he wanted a friend he could fuck.

He said it was real but the more I think about it the less I believe him. I've never clicked with another person as much as him, we connected on every level, had amazing sex, made each other laugh. It feels like every few weeks my heart breaks all over again.

sorry this probably makes no sense, I'm considering stepping away from the friendship. but I don't know if I can get through another heartbreak, I don't think I can love like that ever again.

I don't want to quit, but I'm smoking way more than I can afford. I can't go a day without it anymore and now I'm broke. This is so embarrassing especially cus it's just weed, i couldn't bear to join an addiction group since there aren't any weed specific ones near me and I don't wanna sit next to someone going through a "real" addiction and act like i could even compare. idk. I'm not sure where I'm going with this but it sucks