Having a hard time expressing my wants and needs
I’m having a really difficult time discussing and putting up boundaries or what I want in a relationship whether it’s platonic or romantic. I’ve hit a hard place recently after getting out of a relationship of 2 years, I feel like all the walls I learned to break down are going right back up. I can’t say what I feel, and when a boundary is crossed (to no fault of the other party at all!), I can’t seem to say “oh yeah let’s maybe not do that.” For example, I’ve been exploring FWB situations with different people, although I only really have one actual situation with one of my ‘friends’. But, with this being an active situation I tend to talk about it with my other friends and somehow I’ve gotten myself into another with a friend I’ve had for about 3-4 years now. Unfortunately, somehow in discussing/not discussing this, it seems that this friends idea of FWB is not only sex but also kind of with romantic hints? We went on a hang out that felt very very date like. He is a very nice guy. He paid for my dinner, my movie tickets, etc. held doors for me, held my hand, kissed me on the cheek, and just got very close in general. This just isn’t natural for us and I felt myself freezing up instead of just putting up the boundary or even reciprocating it back. This seems like a non issue and obviously I will have a talk with him about it, I’d never like to leave him in the dark but whenever the moment comes I just feel frozen, anxious and I can’t say anything. Is this an issue anyone else has or has had?? I feel so weird and alone.