u/Rare_Performance2152

Thank you for taking the time to read this

I’m 18 years old, and I have been wearing the hijab since I was 3 years old, not by my own choosing. As I’m leaving my teenage years I’ve thought more and more about how I don’t want to wear the hijab and how I don’t want to be restricted to religious rules because i don’t feel that religion is important in my life

I briefly spoke to me parents about hypothetically taking it off and they said they would kick me out if I did so that means I have to do it in secret which is going to be so hard especially with where I live I would have to be extra cautious to not get caught. And honestly I don’t know if all that anxiety and worry is worth the freedom of me being able to dress how I want to. But I so badly don’t want to wear it anymore. I just wish it was easier for me. One of my best friends wore the hijab for a couple months after Ramadan but has now taken it off and her parents don’t mind, it’s always been a choice for her and I’m extremely jealous 😓.

If anyone has been or is currently in a similar position to me I’d love to talk of get some advice <333

Thank you for taking the time to read this

I’m 18 years old, and I have been wearing the hijab since I was 3 years old, not by my own choosing. As I’m leaving my teenage years I’ve thought more and more about how I don’t want to wear the hijab and how I don’t want to be restricted to religious rules because i don’t feel that religion is important in my life

I briefly spoke to me parents about hypothetically taking it off and they said they would kick me out if I did so that means I have to do it in secret which is going to be so hard especially with where I live I would have to be extra cautious to not get caught. And honestly I don’t know if all that anxiety and worry is worth the freedom of me being able to dress how I want to. But I so badly don’t want to wear it anymore. I just wish it was easier for me. One of my best friends wore the hijab for a couple months after Ramadan but has now taken it off and her parents don’t mind, it’s always been a choice for her and I’m extremely jealous 😓.

If anyone has been or is currently in a similar position to me I’d love to talk of get some advice <333

I get so scared to confront people because I’m a really sensitive person and I worry that they’ll say something that will hurt me. But because of this people end up walking all over me bc I never defend myself and I hate it.

For example, for a while now my younger sister had been taking my clothes and accessories etc and wearing them without asking me and everytime I try to hold up the courage to say something I can’t because I get so anxious. I also hate arguments too because my parents yelled all the time when I was a kid so I try to avoid them.

I always thought that I didn’t care that people would walk all over me because I feel very worthless myself and I think about ending my life a lot so I shouldn’t care that people use my things but now I have a lot of resentment for people and I feel horrible.

I don’t know how I’m ever you going to get through life when I become an adult I’m way too anxious