u/RaspberryPositive518

I'm so angry and frustrated at my body!! Constantly flares back to back. I've tried countless meds and now my kidneys are being affected! Why. Just why does this have to happen. Like I was always on the move doing things with my husband and kids and BAM! 2 Christmases ago it all started! Now I feel like a damn burden to my family. I'm so exhausted. Mentally and physically. I just want to be me again. I'm tired of having pain all the time. I'm tired of laying in bed all the time. I'm tired of having to numb pain with weed all the time because wtf body!! Another morning of me waking up in pain and crying. I'm exhausted and frustrated and I Wana just scream at the world why me. I'm sorry if this post is everywhere. Writing while I'm crying and getting ready to smoke so I can have SOME relief.

Hi!! Im 31/f ,I'm a mom and a wife! I wanted to have a friend I can write letters to!. I've been really down for a couple months and wanted to do something different to lift my spirits. I love getting packages and letters in the mail. The excitement makes me really happy. So I thought why not try and find a pen pal!! So hi!! Things I like:

I love art! I loveeee cooking! I'm a stay at home mom! I also have chronic health conditions (that's what's making me feel low these months). I've recently been playing overwatch a lot. I also love smoking the mother herb to help with my pains. I love nature and animals. So on and so forth. Lol that's a little about me. 😊

Not sure if I picked the right flare. But I just wanted to just scream into the void about how I'm so sick and tired of this empty lonely feeling inside my chest. It feels like an itch I cant scratch! I Wana dig it out of my chest and just throw it away. But I can't. I'm a mom of 4 with a lovely husband I've been with for 11 years. Everyone that meets me always says how great of a person I am and how loving and caring I am. That I'm "such a happy person all around". But deep down I'm having a constant battle with my thoughts and emotions. I'm surrounded by people but feel utterly lonely and empty inside. I'm so frustrated and exhausted with myself. I can go on and on about my life but I feel like it's a waste of time. I just kinda wanted someone out there to know I'm just really tired.