u/Ready_Amoeba5401

I genuinely do not know what to do anymore. My social anxiety and depression has worsened because of the trauma I experienced at workplaces. I haven't left the house in months. I cannot even make myself go see my psychiatrist because it requires going out of the house.

The worst part is I know I have to start applying and working again this month because the bills won't pay themselves. I don't feel safe anywhere I go and I honestly don't want to start taking meds again because its too expensive.

I feel so hopeless and desperate. Because mobbing has happened to me at multiple jobs. I know I am quiet, young, and seem shy and timid and barely speak but being constantly derided and ostracized at every job because of it is exhausting. It doesn't help that I work in call centers and that industry values bubbly, sociable people who know how to sell themselves.

Was I right for cutting of this friend for always correcting how I play a game? lmao?

Last month, I made this friend online because we play this certain game and are very active in it. We often play together daily at night and are in the same team in this special event in said game.

I have been recently feeling more and more irritated and resentful of him recently because he always corrects me in group settings over trivial things. For example I would be agreeing with someone venting and saying yeah that behavior sucks and he would then butt in and say "no thats not the case".

This guy is also older than me so that may play a part. I usually let it slide but he has always been doing it and I notice he does this with me only (he does not do it with our other online friends who are closer to his age).

Also when we are with this other friend, I notice he subtly excludes me and frequently brings up topics that only he and the said friend know about (usually quests they have done when I am not online). I usually ignore these but it has been happening for weeks now and is getting kind of annoying. Likewise him and his other friend will often switch to their local language (they are from the same country while I am not) even though they know I will not understand and that I am participating just fine in the conversation. When interacting with other casual friends in the game server who are also foreign, I notice he speaks strictly English with them out of consideration.

My main other cause of irritation is that he will often give unsolicited suggestions on my playing style in the game (when I did not ask for it). Mind you this game is a chill cozy game (so its not competitive, we mostly just farm and build houses ingame and you can customize cute avatars with clothes and whatnot).

What really pissed me off is that I changed my in game avatar to having red hair from black hair and he "complained and said why was it red". I ignored him and kept it red. Another time I was showing him this castle I had built in game and then he complained again and said "you should have not made the bridge arched and kept it flat". Mind you I mostly let him design whatever he builds in the game and I make sure to be complimentary and be nice, because hey this game is for fun and we can each build whatever we want on our own respective plots.

One time he also said I was not giving suggestions for the house styles for the team event in the game, when I was giving a lot of suggestions for our team but he just kept shooting them down. There are many other incidents like this but today I got fed up and told him to get a new team member. I also told him I would be cutting him off and find someone else to grind items with because I was sick of how he always had something to say and how things always had to be done his way. I came here to relax and not listen to someone give orders.

I then blocked him but the other friend is taking his side. I mean? was I wrong? I was genuinely getting irritated seeing his name in the game already lol.

Saw way too many posts on reddit defending creeps and saying "they are both legally consenting adults". Its disheartening and annoying that so many men approve of large age gap relationships where grooming and a power imbalance is clearly involved.

I posted a problem I had for awhile on this subreddit and 3 other subreddits. And while there were some hostile, rude comments on other subs (and they were more mental health focused subs) , the responses here were more understanding and considerate, even though the problem I posted about seemed weird or trivial. I am just glad I found a safe space here. And its so weird but I often find that ND people are nicer than NT people. I mask pretty well and most of my few friends are NT (so I rarely bring up certain isues I have being around other people) but I find that ND people genuinely have a sense of justice that NT people don't.

The few ND people I know have a strong set of principles and usually have empathy for outsiders, animals or anyone abused but I cannot always say the same for NT people. Most of the NT people I know are perfectly fine with gossiping and backstabbing while the ND people I have met irl as well are more direct and it is refreshing. I do wish people said more of what they thought and felt instead of the social rules that NT people subscribe by (small talk, fake compliments, etc., passive aggressiveness)