u/Recruit14344

Hello im John. Im looking for a feiend who also has been medically retired or been honorable discharged. To share tgere experience during there training in the military.

When I was in Marine Corps boot camp, everything changed. The stress became overwhelming. The drill instructors (DIs), especially the Senior Drill Instructor, constantly put us under pressure and used mind games as part of training. Looking back, I don’t blame them—they were doing their job—but my mind couldn’t handle the extreme stress.
One of the first signs something was wrong happened during Sunday church services. Every time I heard the worship songs, I would start crying uncontrollably. At the time, I didn’t understand why.
As the days went on, my thoughts became more and more disconnected from reality. I started believing I was living inside a movie and that I was an actor. Eventually, I began hearing voices and experiencing delusions without realizing I was becoming mentally ill.
One night, I noticed the bathroom was dirty, so I started cleaning it. I had gone so long without proper sleep that I couldn’t think clearly anymore. I became convinced that everyone else needed to help me clean, so I kept waking up the other recruits. They repeatedly refused, but I couldn’t stop asking them. Eventually, some of them decided to report me to the Senior Drill Instructor.
When I realized they were getting the SDI, I panicked. I started screaming, “Stop! Stop!” The SDI came out yelling, and from that point I completely lost control. I ran around screaming, poured water over myself, and another DI came over and shouted at me. No one physically attacked me, but my mind was completely overwhelmed. I was exercising, running around, and acting in ways I couldn’t control.
The military police were called. They handcuffed me, but I resisted because I had no idea what was happening. I remember yelling, “USA! Freedom!” They eventually brought me to the ground. After that, my memory becomes very unclear.
I vaguely remember having what seemed like a seizure. I also remember dreaming that I was in heaven.
When I woke up, I was at Beaufort Memorial Hospital near Parris Island. Even there, I was still deeply psychotic. I believed I was “the chosen one,” that I was incredibly intelligent, and that I was destined to become an astronaut. Those beliefs felt completely real to me.
As the days passed and I received treatment, I slowly began to realize that I had experienced a severe manic episode with psychosis. I had completely lost touch with reality.
The doctors treated me with medications including risperidone, trazodone, and divalproex. Recovery wasn’t instant, but over time the delusions faded, and I gradually understood what had happened.
Today, I still take my medications, and I have to be careful with stress because I know it can affect my mental health. I was medically retired and am now permanently disabled. While that was never the life I imagined, I’m grateful I survived, received treatment, and now receive disability compensation that helps support me.
I’m sharing my story because mental illness can happen to anyone. When you’re in the middle of a manic or psychotic episode, you often don’t realize anything is wrong. The experience feels completely real. Recovery is possible, and I’m thankful to still be here today. #MH

Ps i used chat gpt to improve my Story but i read it and it is what i wanted comment below if u wanna read what i typed im not good that typing. And grammar

So when i was in bootcamp i was hospitalized and transferred to beufort memorial and then been diagnosed with a very scary mental health diagnosis they diagnosed me to bipolar and later on schizoaffective disorder for me i really dont know what is the reason what happend i was just trying to survive bootcamp but there is that time where i was triggered and boom i forgot what happend to my self i remember i was running around screaming that the marine corps is the best of the best and the di is punishing and i cannot control my self i was following there orders until i was very aggressive and trying to wake up other recruits and the di later on called the mullah police to get im because i was manic episode that time and yea i forgot what happend but i have a little glimpse of what happend but i cannot control my self that time and yep i remembered i was in ambulance and then remembered i was in Brain scanned or mri or idk what is that and when i wake up i was in emergency room and then transferred to physcward in beufort memorial and stayed there for a while and there was more to say but ill stop here because i just cant stop thinkng about what happend we never know what will happend i regreted it what happend to me but i didnt do it on purpose i was just triggered and cannot control my self hoping all of u who read this respect me and always stay humbled im just sharing my experience and what i felt. It is what it is we only lifes once but goodluck guys thanks for reading btw dont forget to like or comment so i can see who is reading.

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