u/Remarkable_Variety30

i’ve only smoked weed a couple of times. most all of them are horrible experiences. one time i genuinely thought i died, twice. this was from 3 hits off a bowl.
carts and gummies don’t affect me as bad, but when they do, i think about dying a lot. i think abt all the ways i could die. and i think about kmsing.
so the other night i was with my boyfriend and his cousin and they were smoking, i haven’t smoked since may 22nd or something, but while they were smoking, i hadn’t even touched the weed and i started to feel really really high. ive never gotten a contact high before, never that bad. but that was the most normal high ive ever had. but it was so weird because i didnt even touch the weed. not once. i didnt even go near it.

my friend wants my grim sprite for a zero point should i do it?

so i was on 300 mg of Wellbutrin before they took it down to 150 and put me on 37.5mg of effexor. now they just raised it to 75mg.
so i was in the hospital about a month ago and they raised my wellbutrin to 300mg. i was very agitated and very angry all the time. so when i got out i told my psychiatrist. they took me down to 150 and put me on effexor. supposedly if it works for a family member it’s more likely to work for u. my mom is on it so there’s more likely a good chance it’ll work. i haven’t really taken my meds since i got out of the hospital. and so yesterday i decided to just start it. so it was my 150mg of wellbutrin and 75mg of effexor. and i was high. really really high. but not a terrible high. my pupils were huge and there was a point i thought there was something wrong with my nose. but today i took only my effexor since i haven’t even taken my wellbutrin since i got out of the hospital and i feel high again. but a lot less than i did yesterday. i feel like shaky but inside, and when i yawn it makes my jaw shake idk. also i kept grinding my teeth and idk why. i think this was my fault but just wondering if anyone has any advice or suggestions or if i should talk to someone?

i’ve tried carts, gummies, and smoking weed, and every single one effects me a little differently, but all in bad ways.
last night i was on the way home from my moms, and my boyfriend had let me hit his cart, and i felt the effects immediately. i was really really tired and my body felt really heavy. i had my head on my boyfriends lap so i didn’t move much. but anyway, so i didn’t talk but i kept writing on my notes app to talk to him.
the best way i can explain how i felt is like memory lapses, i would be thinking about something and then forget about it and move on to something else, and i felt like i knew everything, and i started to overthink everything and my heart was racing and my breathing was becoming heavier. i was watching reels, and i read something about an overdose, and my brain started telling me i was overdosing and that my boyfriend was trying to kill me and he put something in the cart to kill me. and i had like a whole thought about us getting into a car accident and dying. i kept thinking i was going to die. i kept trying to keep myself positive because i knew when i got in my head i would overthink. i was so scared. my uncle was in the passenger seat and he was snoring and the snoring sounded so loud to me and i kept thinking he was dying.
i think i should stop with weed, i don’t think i do well on it. this wasn’t even my worst experience they’re usually worse but carts don’t usually make me feel this way this hard. please tell me what this could be or why it makes me feel this way

so last night, my boyfriend had come over and it was about midnight. he was at his cousins place and we were on the phone majority of the time, but he told me to unlock my garage cuz he might be able to come over. right after his phone died and he was inactive. and then i was on the phone with my friend for a while and i hear knocking, at this point it had been abt 20-25 minutes and i start to hear knocking. he was knocking at my window because i had forgotten to unlock the garage door bottom lock. when he came in and we were cuddling he smelled like a condom. it caught me off guard a little bit and i was like oh. i didn’t talk to him about it, but he was very like excessively clingy and complimenting me.