u/RequirementKindly710

I have been in love with you for almost two years and I’m not sure how the hell it happened. We never were anything ever other than well you know what we did, we had fun the best kind of fun. I always knew the routine I knew I meant nothing even though I wanted to mean something to you.

So many times you came and went, so how and why did I fall in love with you. You’re really kind of an asshole and have a big ass ego and you are not a humble person at all, even though you say you are. You’re not even all that no offense, you have issues just like everyone else. You care more about what people think than anyone I have ever met. Eww a h time we came around each other I told myself I could handle it, well silly fucking me that was a lie.

Every time you vanished it stung and it really stung when you showed up with someone else because what was wrong with me, you could have fun with me and take my help. But that was it and that’s all I was. So each time you vanished I had to get over you,and I would with time and guess what would happen you would eventually show back up somehow. And I would lie to myself again.

You never promised me anything, so it’s not your fault. But this last go around was damn sure the biggest hurt, which I say now is my fault. I knew how I felt but this time was way different you gave me more glimpses that I had never seen before, but it was probably just the HIGH of things at-least for you. I don’t want to love you, I don’t want to be your friend either!! Just stay away it’s what’s best, you got everything you wanted and that’s probably why I saw a newer version of you. I was blinded with my own stupidity. The sad thing is I can’t wrap my head around why you of all people that I’m drawn to why? Why do I love you!! THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?

I’m a gorgeous fucking person who has a heart that’s the purest of pure. I have realized that I wasn’t meant for anyone to love or want me, I’m just here to give it and learn a lesson. And damn have I learned some lessons. As I said I knew better and thought I could bet against myself and I lost. You are wrong in some ways, I hope one day you can see that. (But you won’t, because you don’t like to be wrong)however I will always cherish the fun we had together and the last couple months I most definitely will tuck away in a special place because for a moment a brief moment I got to feel something more from you than I ever had.

So no I don’t want to be your friend because I can’t, I can’t be just cool. I will never tell you ever. Just don’t fuck me over when it comes to the last thing that’s left between us. I wish you the best but I must protect myself and I need my heart to release you. Be safe, please take care of yourself.

Goodbye

P.S. Your eyes are your best feature about you.

Since I’m only good enough for that kind of stuff(eye roll) which I know damn well I worked my ass off for you and you enjoyed every minute of it, don’t get me wrong I loved every damn minute also.

But I had to face reality and stop because I’m worth more than just a hook up that knocks my socks off and knocks your rocks off! And I actually like you and I can’t just do that I cannot separate the way I feel about you for as much fun as it has been.

But baby, the next time you go to play in the sheets, I hope it sucks, I hope your dick stays limp, and I hope she gives you the worst blow job you’ve ever had that you realize no one‘s gonna do it better than I did. No one most certainly is gonna stick at it for hours like I did. It’s too bad I’m only worth sex and blow jobs. I am gonna miss your hands around my throat and spanking me. It’s been rather fun, but I’m too smart to stick in it and get hurt.

Just so you know, there’s not one single man that ever got that version of me ever not even when I was married. But I guarantee you this there will be a day or maybe even a random time or maybe in the bedroom with the next one that you have over, but I’m damn sure gonna cross your mind.

Bye Lover Boy

Dear Blue eyes,

I knew better, but I chose to over and over again. I have spent years on and off with pieces of you that come and go. It’s always the same with you. You do have a great vanishing act and I have learned you so well. I know I could never be anything more to you other than a convenience from time to time. I talk myself up that you won’t be my addiction. But damnit, when it comes to you I cave! I really have no one to blame, but myself and I own that.

The crazy thing is you’re not even all that. I’m not meaning that in a bad way. You’re a very materialistic person , you have money problems, and other addictions, you definitely don’t always make good decisions when it comes to thinking things through.

Somehow from the moment I was introduced to you I felt an energy a vibe an instant pull. I don’t know what the deal is. You’ve literally lied to me and have led me on before but here I am if you call I answer if you ask me to come I come.

You will never feel the way that I feel about you which sucks because I’ve seen some of the people you get in relationships with,and I’m not trying to say I’m better than anyone but dammit what the fuck!

I must break this addiction even though every time you call or tell me to come I do, nothing‘s ever gonna change. It’s not gonna make you want me,but fuck at least we’ve had some pretty good damn sex even though I work my ass off.😂 I really am going to miss that you’re the only one that has given me what I desired in the bedroom. I have to be a grown-up and get over you because like I said, you are my addiction and I don’t know why and it’s not healthy for me.

Goodbye please don’t bother me ever again, I want more than the D you don’t, so let me move on In peace.

To someone who does not deserve to breathe the same air as anyone else. By chance if you ever did come across this unsent letter, go take a look at yourself in the mirror, do you see yourself? Go fuck off! I don't care if you know it's me. I'm not like you, I don't need to make a story up. (Don't forget darling I come with facts)

Every single day you come across my mind if not multiple times. And each time I'm absolutely disgusted that you come into my mind, why is that? We'll let me tell you why, perhaps several years I gave to you which included love, marriage, children, faithfulness from me, authenticity, a pure real love. I stood by you time and time again Through the drug addiction. And the multiple affairs. I guess some of it's my fault. I allowed myself to keep standing by you and took you back every single time! And guess what the same pattern showed its ugliness every time and each time being worse than the time before.

You knew my pattern, which would be to take you back each time, so what the fuck did it matter if you kept hurting me. There were times I would come home, and you'd be staring out the blinds holding knives or sleeping with knives in the bed. Or how about the time in the middle of the night after you had been kicked out you broke in while I was sleeping and covered my mouth and tried to make me stab you. Or how about the time you were so fucked out of your head that you busted through the front door with a brick and put the brick to my chest and came at me, the kids were home and had seen this. After your episode with me you went into a semi type of seizure, my mother had showed up shortly during this she said, call the cops, call 911. And I said just leave him there. And I went to work. Do you remember when you fucked my coworker? Or how about the time you went to work for one of my family members and fucked one of their workers? Oh, we can't forget that one job you had where you also fucked a married woman that worked there with you. And my dumb ass still stayed. Because I thought this is what love does. And you would tell me you never give up on someone you love. And you had an addiction. And I needed to help you. I thought I was a healer. (laughing) I know I'm not now.

To be continued....