Given how careless I have been with my money, I am thinking of giving someone close to me control of my finances. I don't trust myself. I am posting this to hear other people's experiences doing this, it would be very helpful.
I'm 18f student with no job. So I don't have much money but I have blown all the money I do have on whatever I want. This is because I hate the restrcitive feeling of compromising on buying things I really want, because if I don't I will spend all day thinking about it. I have been diagnosed with depression and the only thing that makes me happy is spending money. Credit card maximums are usually only 1.5k here in the UK and so that is not enough for me to enjoy. Regardless, I'm thinking of getting one but I know I won't be able to pay it back for a while.
I have been spending money carelessly for a dopamine rush. Whether it's junk food or random things. I look physically fit but I am scared of becoming overweight and the possible health issues that come with that, if I keep eating unhealthy. Also, I say drugs but my ID is coming in the post since I just turned 18. So I legally cannot buy cigs or alcohol but meeting up with my friends to smoke and drink makes me happy. Apart from these things, daily life feels hollow and empty. Any advice would be appreciated.
This happens to me sometimes. I searched it up and apparently it is called nocturnal orgasm. Most cis women I tell haven't experienced it. It's the best feeling ever.
I'm pretty hopeless right now. I have lived with my family my whole life but can't afford to move out to uni so I'm just stuck here. Hiding who you are on a daily basis and being treated like a child down to what you wear being controlled is tiring. I'm trying to see the light in this situation but I feel like I just have to put life on pause and hold my breath for the next few years. Then maybe I can finally move out. Does life even getting better when you move out? Share your experiences please, it will give me a lot of hope.