u/Salt_Spray_9313

It’s like I have an urge and give in, only to find myself feeling very down and shitty afterwards, but it seems I’m not learning from this. Just this same cycle of knowing I’m gonna feel bad I don’t understand why I can’t seem to learn from this.

The world around us is so overwhelming. Internet, media, all that. Like deep down in my soul I’m dying to be free but I feel like I just can’t be. I feel like this is impossible to stop. I can barely go longer than 3 days, but I want my clean streaks to last longer than that at the very least. I just need words of encouragement. It feels so overwhelming I know this is bad for me but idk why I can’t stop myself.

Can you all give me the reasons why you want to quit? Maybe it’ll help me feel more motivated

How did the word gooning become a slang for masturbation? I hate that word like gooning? Gooooooning?? Idk i find that cringe asf

I’m never gonna stop. Honestly I don’t think I want freedom badly enough. Either I don’t want it or I do but don’t know how to get it. I’m single, I’m a virgin, and I’m a guy. Idk how else to control my sexual energy because I’m dying to have sex with someone but I can’t because nobody likes me. Fuck it. We’re all here to die one day so nothing I do matters anyway

I have severe ocd and depression so I cannot handle that with a porn addiction on top of it. I don’t have that kind of strength and I never will. To watch porn gives me a few minutes of relief as opposed to a lifetime of emotional and mental agony. And don’t nobody bring up that religion shit because that destroyed me also. It’s because of that that I fear hell every day of my life. I wish I never grew up religious because that’s what religion does to people. It’s all a big fear tactic.

I’m 20M, I’m hopelessly single, been fatherless for over two years, suffering from ocd, and a very bad porn addiction I’ve had for years.

Why is it so goddamn hard?! Like I’d say 98% of the time I can abstain from fapping for no more than a day or two.

I don’t understand. I’m not making any progress why can’t I abstain longer why? WHY?? WHY CANT I DO IT?? I’d rather screw up after an entire clean week than like 2 days.

I hate this shit. I fucking hate porn so much, yet a piece of me loves it. This never ending cycle of misery and mental torment. I can’t believe how much of a loser I am, how painfully pathetic my existence is. I didn’t know my life would come to this. I’m wasting my existence and not 1 second of it is at peace.

I’ve been through so much shit in my life… but the other night I realized something. Anything I put my mind to in life I have accomplished. Except for this.

I can do anything in life… except beat this addiction. It’s the only thing I can’t do.

Also note that with my ocd I have nonstop intrusive thoughts about sex and porn all day and all night. The only relief I get is when I sleep. That’s it.

I wish I had the strength to kill myself. I wish I could, but I know I never will.

In this world I’m left to bleed and die alone. We all are. We will all die, so what’s the point of life if it’s gonna end?

I shouldn’t exist
The world doesn’t need a pathetic piece of shit like me.

As I said in a post I made the other day, I’m a 20M and single. I think I have an absolute obsession over the idea of having sex, because I’ve been wanting to for so long but there’s nobody I can go to.

I feel like because porn makes it seem like this super fun wild thing but my question to yall is..

Is it really?

FUCK PORN🖕🖕🖕