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So last night I(33,M) met my closest friend (33,F) we were at an evening with other friends I pulled her to share this news with her, her reaction was weird, she said congratulations and then there was a silence, I thought that its because she is a bit drunk and I felt I will spill the beans, the details about expected date etc some other day over a coffee or a dinner soon. I expected her to give a hug, ask more, etc.
This morning I was doom scrolling on instagram and like every day as we both do, I wanted to share something funny with her, just to find out I am blocked, on instagram, on whatsapp, everyhwere... Shocked, and in grief, specially since we always talked how we will grow old together.
A bit of context, we matched on Tinder 5 years ago, we exchanged numbers, however we never went on a date as she ghosted me after exchanging numbers, in the next few days I had a tinder date and I started dating this another girl, she texted back after about 3 weeks I told her I am seeing someone else, she said lets meet as friends, we met as friends and since then became closest friends.
Over the next years we discussed everything, our respective dates, relationships, professional lives etc, it was always platonic.
about 2.5 years ago she met her current partner, and a few months later I met mine, she lied to her partner that we met through common friends when we met through tinder because she was afraid her partner would be against the friendship.
I just feel a big void and feels unreal all this.
Waht should I do ?

Edit 1: all these years she never wanted babies, she did not want children of her own, she thinks there is no good reason to have children. however last year she told me she is opening up to idea and she may try from later this year 2026 to have babies as well, but she needs to think more about it, she is not totally convinced.

Also, her current partner, lied to her that he has a little month old baby when they started dating and only told her after three months when she was already in love with him, he never wanted a baby with this other woman apparently who he was just hooking up with. Anyway with her, he says he would like to have a baby and is trying to convince her to have a baby.
Also she knew from 8 months we will be trying for a baby with my partner.

Edit 2 : Growing old meaning as when we get old we will have vacations together with our partners, if we both have kids one day we will make them friends. Completely platonic.
Also my partner knows everything about it.

Edit 3 : I am in a civil partnership with my partner, she is in a civil partnership with her partner, both of them are buying an appartment together. So she is committed to her partner I feel otherwise you wont make such an important financial decision.

ALSO She told me some years ago that she doesn't like kids also because they create a distance between friends. I assured her though that that will not be the case between us, I have always tried to be there for people around me. For example, some years ago she was performing her first play that she had been preparing for a year, I was in China for a work meeting, I finished everything withiin 4 instead of 6 days and was back in time to France to watch her act in the play. And this is not just her, I would do things like that for people that matter friends, family etc.

Should I text her / send an email ?

So last night I(33,M) met my closest friend (33,F) we were in a party I pulled her to share this news with her, her reaction was weird, she just said congratulations and then there was a silence, I thought that is because she is a bit drunk and I felt I will spill the beans, the details about expected date etc some other day over a coffee or a dinner soon.
This morning I was doom scrolling on instagram and like every day as we both do, I wanted to share something funny with her, just to find out I am blocked, on instagram, on whatsapp, everyhwere... Shocked, and in grief, specially since we always talked how we will grow old together.
A bit of context, we matched on Tinder 5 years ago, we exchanged numbers, however we never went on a date as she ghosted me after exchanging numbers, in the next few days I had a tinder date and I started dating this another girl, she texted back after about 3 weeks I told her I am dating someone she said lets meet as friends, we met as friends and since then became closest friends.
Over the next years we discussed everything, over respective dates, relationships, profesisonal lifes etc, it was always platonic.
about 2.5 years ago she met her current partner, and a few months later I met mine, she lied to her partner that we met through common friends when we met through tinder because she was afraid her partner would be against the friendship.
She is my closest friend in France, I moved here from abroad, and I just feel a big void and feels unreal all this.
Waht should I do ?

Edit 1: all these years she never wanted babies, she did not want children of her own, she felt it is too expensive to have babies and she doesnt think she can never felt there is a reason to have babies. however last year she told me she is opening up to idea and she may try from later this year 2026 to have babies as well, but she needs to think more about it, she is not totally convinced.

Also, her current partner, lied to her that he has a little month old baby when they started dating and only told her after three months when she was already in love with him, he never wanted a baby with this other woman apparently who he was just hooking up with. Anyway with her, he says he would like to have a baby and is trying to convince her to have a baby.
Also she knew from 8 months we will be trying for a baby with my partner.

Edit 2 : Growing old meaning as when we get old we will have vacations together with our partners, if we both have kids one day we will make them friends. Completely platonic.
Also my partner knows everything about it.

So last night I(33,M) met my closest friend (33,F) we were in a party I pulled her to share this news with her, her reaction was weird, she just said congratulations and then there was a silence, I thought that is because she is a bit drunk and I felt I will spill the beans, the details about expected date etc some other day over a coffee or a dinner soon.
This morning I was doom scrolling on instagram and like every day as we both do, I wanted to share something funny with her, just to find out I am blocked, on instagram, on whatsapp, everyhwere... Shocked, and in grief, specially since we always talked how we will grow old together.
A bit of context, we matched on Tinder 5 years ago, we exchanged numbers, however we never went on a date as she ghosted me after exchanging numbers, in the next few days I had a tinder date and I started dating this another girl, she texted back after about 3 weeks I told her I am dating someone she said lets meet as friends, we met as friends and since then became closest friends.
Over the next years we discussed everything, over respective dates, relationships, profesisonal lifes etc, it was always platonic.
about 2.5 years ago she met her current partner, and a few months later I met mine, she lied to her partner that we met through common friends when we met through tinder because she was afraid her partner would be against the friendship.
She is my closest friend in France, I moved here from abroad, and I just feel a big void and feels unreal all this.
Waht should I do ?

So last night I(33,M) met my closest friend (33,F) we were in a party I pulled her to share this news with her, her reaction was weird, she just said congratulations and then there was a silence, I thought that is because she is a bit drunk and I felt I will spill the beans, the details about expected date etc some other day over a coffee or a dinner soon.
This morning I was doom scrolling on instagram and like every day as we both do, I wanted to share something funny with her, just to find out I am blocked, on instagram, on whatsapp, everyhwere... Shocked, and in grief, specially since we always talked how we will grow old together.
A bit of context, we matched on Tinder 5 years ago, we exchanged numbers, however we never went on a date as she ghosted me after exchanging numbers, in the next few days I had a tinder date and I started dating this another girl, she texted back after about 3 weeks I told her I am dating someone she said lets meet as friends, we met as friends and since then became closest friends.
Over the next years we discussed everything, over respective dates, relationships, profesisonal lifes etc, it was always platonic.
about 2.5 years ago she met her current partner, and a few months later I met mine, she lied to her partner that we met through common friends when we met through tinder because she was afraid her partner would be against the friendship.
She is my closest friend in France, I moved here from abroad, and I just feel a big void and feels unreal all this.
Waht should I do ?
Edit 1: all these years she never wanted babies, she did not want children of her own, she felt it is too expensive to have babies and she doesnt think she can never felt there is a reason to have babies. however last year she told me she is opening up to idea and she may try from later this year 2026 to have babies as well, but she needs to think more about it, she is not totally convinced.

Also, her current partner, lied to her that he has a little month old baby when they started dating and only told her after three months when she was already in love with him, he never wanted a baby with this other woman apparently who he was just hooking up with. Anyway with her, he says he would like to have a baby and is trying to convince her to have a baby.
Also she knew from 8 months we will be trying for a baby with my partner.

Edit 2 : Growing old meaning as when we get old we will have vacations together with our partners, if we both have kids one day we will make them friends. Completely platonic.
Also my partner knows everything about it.