I want to comprehend our Lords love more, and to know the path with him more and in unity with him, to love him more, and living with him, being transformed by him, please give me recommendations Godbless you
Please Beloveds I need help and prayer, and possibly revelation
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for like the past 80 days it feels like My flesh is molesting me, Throughout the day when I’m walking, sitting down, And or trying to sleep, whilst having a clear mind, I do suddenly get orgasmic sensations, and it feels very disgusting when it happens to me, It is tormenting and numbing, and it feels so hopeless, I don’t watch Porn, and I never do “help it” but when it gets to a point where it’s not going away for atleast an hour, I do help it get to a point where it can release itself, but before that happens I do step away from it, Because I don’t know what to do, I’ve tried going on walks whenever it happens,
I’m afraid to go deep into prayer because then it feels more real and vivid, This thing is constantly defiling me
But when I search in the spirit I don’t see any evil spirit tormenting me, I do believe this is happening because an evil spirit did molest me before, and ever since then my flesh has just kept on repeating what that feels like, and I hate it, Is this my thorn in the flesh,
When I went to my spiritual director when it started happening, i gave her some prophetic words to confirm I believe that the Lord was telling me that “it’s involuntary” and “you have not sinned against Me”
Can anyone else give me confirmation on this?, I need help remnant of God, I don’t want to sin against God, please pray for Me Godbless all of you.
I’ve been using declarations to go against it, and just trying to distract myself whenever it happens, But I don’t feel like it’s an evil spirit, i really don’t know what scripture I can apply to myself here.
“Sexual and inappropriate information*
Please Beloveds I need help and prayer, and possibly revelation
for like the past 80 days it feels like My flesh is molesting me, Throughout the day when I’m walking, sitting down, And or trying to sleep, whilst having a clear mind, I do suddenly get orgasmic sensations, and it feels very disgusting when it happens to me, It is tormenting and numbing, and it feels so hopeless, I don’t watch Porn, and I never do “help it” but when it gets to a point where it’s not going away for atleast an hour, I do help it get to a point where it can release itself, but before that happens I do step away from it, Because I don’t know what to do, I’ve tried going on walks whenever it happens,
I’m afraid to go deep into prayer because then it feels more real and vivid, This thing is constantly defiling me
But when I search in the spirit I don’t see any evil spirit tormenting me, I do believe this is happening because an evil spirit did molest me before, and ever since then my flesh has just kept on repeating what that feels like, and I hate it, Is this my thorn in the flesh,
When I went to my spiritual director when it started happening, i gave her some prophetic words to confirm I believe that the Lord was telling me that “it’s involuntary” and “you have not sinned against Me”
Can anyone else give me confirmation on this?, I need help remnant of God, I don’t want to sin against God, please pray for Me Godbless all of you.
I’ve been using declarations to go against it, and just trying to distract myself whenever it happens, But I don’t feel like it’s an evil spirit, I’m really not sure of what scripture I can apply for myself here in this situation.
Spiritual trauma (vent pls help need advice) pls pray for me
I have seen absolutely no media or any awareness on this topic, although it is effecting my life every day and in every moment, I do not know how to live anymore, I went through so much identity collapse and I’m to out of touch with myself to even Enjoy anything, when I came to Christ I was set free from anhedonia, I couldn’t feel any dopamine at all, and now it feels the same, All of my creativity is gone, I can not think like I used to, I can neither enjoy philosophy, art, or even My God, why would he commission such a wilderness for me and make it so hard to return back to normal, I don’t like posting on Reddit, I would rather vent to the Lord, But I just don’t know how to enjoy prayer anymore, It’s like my worst fears happened to me in a full year, I had this fear that I would lose the ability to bear the fruits of the spirit, I want to be so humble again, I had for myself this “existential appreciation”, Which By the Lords grace I could go through almost anything and just feel alright, I was always detached, it also made my prayer life so wonderful, I was so angry at God, because he let these things happen to me and I just kept on hearing deceptions and deceptions in the spirit.
I have not felt his manifested presence in so long, And I don’t think I’m going to feel it anytime soon, atleast consistently, did I just care to much?, For my relationship with God, that such things would affect me to the point of depression.
It just bothers me that my life was filled with suffering before I went to Christ and now when I came to Christ I am suffering more then I ever did, when My warfare was the hardest i couldn’t work at all, I had these evil dreams constantly, and my strength was being zapped, and this heartbreak was just Always within me, I was so scared and I always felt condemned, im still trying to bounce back, even financially from those horrible horrible times, I can’t comprehend anything anymore, and I loath everything, I even loathe trying to read. Trying to get information out of a book and appreciate the knowledge and wisdom behind it,
And I don’t know what to do, I’m only 19, but I don’t have it in me to live anymore, it’s like I’m in the verge of a breakdown in every moment, the warfare I’ve experienced was so close and personal, it was very Vivid and somatic, and God was there but I was just waiting for comfort or a sense of normalcy that never came, it was like I was bulldozed into the person I am now which I do not like, I am not more fruitful then I was before those things, but I am less, I am not less sinful but even more, although my identity is in Christ and not in my own righteousness, i do not look more like Christ, These times have made me so bitter and careless.
I am so nothing, i just wish i would d. Ie. already, I don’t want to commit sui., but I do not want to stay either, i live so uncomfortably and I don’t know how to Love God anymore,
I always feel like I am deceived like Gemma galgani, whom was deceived by demons to give her a stigmata, and for her to die for the “intercession of sinners”, but as I was undiscerning I would’ve end up the same as her.
I have seen absolutely no media or any awareness on this topic, although it is effecting my life every day and in every moment, I do not know how to live anymore, I went through so much identity collapse and I’m to out of touch with myself to even Enjoy anything, when I came to Christ I was set free from anhedonia, I couldn’t feel any dopamine at all, and now it feels the same, All of my creativity is gone, I can not think like I used to, I can neither enjoy philosophy, art, or even My God, why would he commission such a wilderness for me and make it so hard to return back to normal, I don’t like posting on Reddit, I would rather vent to the Lord, But I just don’t know how to enjoy prayer anymore, It’s like my worst fears happened to me in a full year, I had this fear that I would lose the ability to bear the fruits of the spirit, I want to be so humble again, I had for myself this “existential appreciation”, Which By the Lords grace I could go through almost anything and just feel alright, I was always detached, it also made my prayer life so wonderful, I was so angry at God, because he let these things happen to me and I just kept on hearing deceptions and deceptions in the spirit.
I have not felt his manifested presence in so long, And I don’t think I’m going to feel it anytime soon, atleast consistently, did I just care to much?, For my relationship with God, that such things would affect me to the point of depression.
It just bothers me that my life was filled with suffering before I went to Christ and now when I came to Christ I am suffering more then I ever did, when My warfare was the hardest i couldn’t work at all, I had these evil dreams constantly, and my strength was being zapped, and this heartbreak was just Always within me, I was so scared and I always felt condemned, im still trying to bounce back, even financially from those horrible horrible times, I can’t comprehend anything anymore, and I loath everything, I even loathe trying to read. Trying to get information out of a book and appreciate the knowledge and wisdom behind it,
And I don’t know what to do, I’m only 19, but I don’t have it in me to live anymore, it’s like I’m in the verge of a breakdown in every moment, the warfare I’ve experienced was so close and personal, it was very Vivid and somatic, and God was there but I was just waiting for comfort or a sense of normalcy that never came, it was like I was bulldozed into the person I am now which I do not like, I am not more fruitful then I was before those things, but I am less, I am not less sinful but even more, although my identity is in Christ and not in my own righteousness, i do not look more like Christ, These times have made me so bitter and careless.
I am so nothing, i just wish i would die already, I don’t want to commit suicide, but I do not want to stay either, i live so uncomfortably and I don’t know how to Love God anymore,
I always feel like I am deceived like Gemma galgani, whom was deceived by demons to give her a stigmata, and for her to die for the “intercession of sinners”, but as I was undiscerning I would’ve end up the same as her.
Hello people of God, I’m very complainly and I’m not in my right mind at all, this is a dumb post honestly prolly not even a good place to put it here, the only popular post are theology questions and the people who need to actually be ministered to don’t have anyone in their post, I’m very angry at the circumstances of my life, and I guess where else to go complain to is the remnant of God kfI’m mad because I miss the person who I used to be before I went threw all of these horrible spiritual experiences, I’m mad because I have no comfort and and I am whole different person because of all that pain and I’m still going threw pain just waiting for all it to go back to normal, I miss loving God so passionately, I miss enjoying scripture and enjoying spending time with him,
I’m mad because of my religious trauma I’m mad because I haven’t felt the loving presence of God in a year and a couple months
There is only dread when I wake up and when I go to sleep, I get so depressed whenever I try to pray, I’m mad at because The manifestation of my healing takes so long,
I’m angry at God because he allowed those evil things to happen to Me when I try so much for him, I’m Mad because I don’t have capacity to feel joy or love, I’m mad because my soul is corrupted
Please pray for me redditors i wish I was dead
I don’t know what it feels like to enjoy God anymore or to feel safe or loved and everybody expects the world from me and I can’t deliver on it because I’m like this,
I want to enjoy spending time with God again, I pray for hours and hours and hours and I only felt even more horrible,
And all of these people online wanna give advice on scripture but they haven’t actually chased God for themselves to the point of destruction, I don’t know some of you people don’t even enjoy God yall just enjoy lecturing
But I love yall and I want to feel love again
I command that this Reddit post be used for the Glory of God I don’t say that to command you rathertocommand thespiritualrealm I was debating on myself about writing this but I heard a voice say “ why would I shelter you away from the love and care of My remnant”,