u/Sensitive_Birdie7

I’ve (23F) been struggling a lot with chronic health issues, especially bladder/urinary problems (I’ve done every test, seen every doctor, tried medications, and still no relief), and lately I feel like I’m breaking down emotionally. My symptoms have made my life feel very small. I’m scared to leave the house, scared about the future, and scared that I won’t be able to live normally all because I live with this illness that no doctor so far can name or help me with. I also have no friends or anyone to turn to other than God.

I’m also struggling spiritually. I believe in God, but right now I don’t feel Him. I don’t know how to pray properly. I just close my eyes and talk to Him as I would talk to a father, begging Him for help.

Sometimes I try to pray, but all I can think is, “Where are You?” I don’t mean that in a disrespectful way. I just feel very alone. I know faith is not supposed to depend only on feelings, but it is hard when I feel like I’m crying constantly and nothing is changing.
I don’t want to become bitter or spiritually numb. I want to turn toward God, but I don’t know how to do that when I feel this afraid and tired. And I feel bad asking Him to heal my illness, since I don’t feel deserving of it.

For anyone else who has dealt with chronic illness, anxiety, loneliness, or feeling abandoned by God, how did you deal with it during that time? Are there any prayers, Psalms, saints, books, or small practices that helped you keep going when you couldn’t feel God close to you?

Thank you to anyone who reads this or takes the time to comment. Also, I’m sorry if this comes off as ungrateful or complaining a lot. I’m in a very low place right now and I’m genuinely trying to understand how to ask God for help.

I’ve (23F) been struggling a lot with chronic health issues, especially bladder/urinary problems (I’ve done every test, seen every doctor, tried medications, and still no relief), and lately I feel like I’m breaking down emotionally. My symptoms have made my life feel very small. I’m scared to leave the house, scared about the future, and scared that I won’t be able to live normally all because I live with this illness that no doctor so far can name or help me with. I also have no friends or anyone to turn to other than God.

I’m also struggling spiritually. I believe in God, but right now I don’t feel Him. I don’t know how to pray properly. I just close my eyes and talk to Him as I would talk to a father, begging Him for help.

Sometimes I try to pray, but all I can think is, “Where are You?” I don’t mean that in a disrespectful way. I just feel very alone. I know faith is not supposed to depend only on feelings, but it is hard when I feel like I’m crying constantly and nothing is changing.
I don’t want to become bitter or spiritually numb. I want to turn toward God, but I don’t know how to do that when I feel this afraid and tired. And I feel bad asking Him to heal my illness, since I don’t feel deserving of it.

For anyone else who has dealt with chronic illness, anxiety, loneliness, or feeling abandoned by God, how did you deal with it during that time? Are there any prayers, Psalms, saints, books, or small practices that helped you keep going when you couldn’t feel God close to you?

Thank you to anyone who reads this or takes the time to comment. Also, I’m sorry if this comes off as ungrateful or complaining a lot. I’m in a very low place right now and I’m genuinely trying to understand how to ask God for help.

I’m 23F and I’ve been dealing with chronic bladder/urinary issues for a long time, but lately it feels unbearable.

My issue is not just a “feeling” that I need to pee. I actually pee a lot. Sometimes I’ll have very pronounced streams and pee large amounts of clear liquid, then need to pee again within 10 minutes (and sometimes it happens early in the morning when I haven’t even had one sip of water or coffee). There are times where I feel like I can’t even get off the toilet because I keep peeing. Then when I finally do get off the toilet, I can feel myself filling up again almost immediately.

It feels like my body is constantly producing urine, especially clear urine, and I don’t understand why. This is what makes it so hard to function. It’s not only urgency or bladder discomfort. It’s the fact that I am actually voiding significant amounts, repeatedly, close together.

I’ve had so many tests done already: ultrasounds, a 24-hour urine collection, PFT, diabetes testing, a cystoscopy, medications, and other investigations. Nothing has explained it. The only medical thing that has ever come up is that I have a small scar on one kidney, but otherwise I’ve been told things look normal.

Emotionally, this is destroying me. I cry all the time because I feel trapped by my bladder. I’m scared to leave the house because I don’t know when I’ll suddenly need to pee again, or whether I’ll be stuck somewhere without easy bathroom access. I’m starting grad school in September, and instead of being excited, I’m terrified about how I’m supposed to sit through classes, meetings, social events, or normal life if this keeps happening.

I’m not asking Reddit to diagnose me. I’m asking if anyone has experienced something similar: frequent large-volume urination, clear urine, peeing again shortly after going, and feeling like your bladder fills right back up.

Thank you to anyone who takes the time to read this and comment.

I’m 23F and I’ve been dealing with chronic bladder/urinary issues for a long time, but lately it feels unbearable.

My issue is not just a “feeling” that I need to pee. I actually pee a lot. Sometimes I’ll have very pronounced streams and pee large amounts of clear liquid, then need to pee again within 10 minutes (and sometimes it happens early in the morning when I haven’t even had one sip of water or coffee). There are times where I feel like I can’t even get off the toilet because I keep peeing. Then when I finally do get off the toilet, I can feel myself filling up again almost immediately.

It feels like my body is constantly producing urine, especially clear urine, and I don’t understand why. This is what makes it so hard to function. It’s not only urgency or bladder discomfort. It’s the fact that I am actually voiding significant amounts, repeatedly, close together.

I’ve had so many tests done already: ultrasounds, a 24-hour urine collection, diabetes testing, a cystoscopy, PFT, medications, and other investigations. Nothing has explained it. The only medical thing that has ever come up is that I have a small scar on one kidney, but otherwise I’ve been told things look normal.

Emotionally, this is destroying me. I cry all the time because I feel trapped by my bladder. I’m scared to leave the house because I don’t know when I’ll suddenly need to pee again, or whether I’ll be stuck somewhere without easy bathroom access. I’m starting grad school in September, and instead of being excited, I’m terrified about how I’m supposed to sit through classes, meetings, social events, or normal life if this keeps happening.

I’m not asking Reddit to diagnose me. I’m asking if anyone has experienced something similar: frequent large-volume urination, clear urine, peeing again shortly after going, and feeling like your bladder fills right back up.

Thank you to anyone who takes the time to read this and comment.

hey everyone, I literally made a reddit account just so I could talk to someone about this.

Basically, my bladder feels pretty fine a lot of the time. But sometimes I get what I call “flares” where I get a sudden urge to pee badly, and when I do pee it’s just a bunch of clear urine. When I finish, I feel no relief. I wait a few seconds, and another stream of urine comes out (and it’s not just a few drops, it’s like a stream). I wait a few more seconds, another stream. And it keeps going on and on and on and it’s severely uncomfortable. I just don’t know what it is, and I’m wondering if anyone else can relate.

FYI, I’ve had many tests, ultrasounds, a cystoscopy, even the test to check for polyuria. It all came back normal. But I KNOW this isn’t normal. Also, I drink one coffee in the morning every day (it has no major effect on my bladder, as some days I’m completely fine), and I don’t drink or smoke.

Anyway, thanks for reading, and lmk if any of you relate. Also forgot to mention, I’m a woman.

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