u/Several_Specific_806

I went to both this year (Beyond was first time at the Gorge). I actually prefer the diverse lineup of Beyond, but I have to say Excision's production is S tier compared to Beyond. I wish Beyond:

1. Added a 2nd set of arrays of speakers at the front of mainstage
2. Activated the lawn speakers at mainstage
3. Better lasers/visual production

1 and 2 are the most important imo. Mainstage at Beyond is quieter compared to Bass.

It was my first Excision fest and I had a good time!

Have you ever been to a venue that has stunning visual production/a cool atmosphere overall, but then the audio just... sucks?

I absolutely hate it!

A lot of this message may seem to make no sense, and you may think "then why did you leave me". Before you read it, just know that my emotions are not logical, and I am not logical right now because I am in grief. Yes, I broke up with you, and I still miss you:

I'm sorry I broke your heart. I'm sorry I proposed to you but then broke things off. You are a great person, and I had many happy moments in our relationship. You were my first love, my first anything. You are so sweet and loving, and I still think of you everyday and I still think you're beautiful. Honestly, I still love you. I left because on some core issues, I realized we were fundamentally incompatible.

But that doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you. You told me there's nothing wrong with me either when we were breaking up, but I feel so broken inside. I wish I could just be compatible with you. I hate the way I am because if I were different in the head, maybe we could have been together. Maybe we could have had that family we always talked about.

I'm sorry. I'm not happy with my decision either. I'm not jumping around in joy that you're gone. I know from your POV, I gave up on you, but from my POV, I just didn't want to lead you on and force something to work when we had fundamental incompatibilities. Nevertheless, I really miss you. I guess it's for the best, but it doesn't feel like it now. Because I miss your smell, your laugh, your smile, your voice, your eyes, and your love. No one ever loved me like you did. I cry everyday. I wish things were different. I wish I was different. I guess I do believe I fought and tried my hardest, but I'm still upset we didn't work out. I'm just so lost and sad.

I hope you're doing okay and I hope you find the best person for you. I still love you ☹️

Yeah, I broke up with her because of fundamental incompatibilities. Yes, I do believe I tried to solve them for a while, but I wasn't happy. Yes, I understand that long term this is better for both of us because we will both find better partners for us.

None of those words though truly helps with the fact that I just fucking miss her. The emptiness and silence in my home is deafening. During the weekends, I used to speak my first words in the morning, and now I don't use my vocal cords at all until late at night when I'm on Discord with my friends. I used to have someone to laugh with, hug, cry with, and now I am alone.

She was my first love and I gave her up because of logic. She is beautiful, kind, and sweet. She was once mine, and now we are like strangers to each other. It is true I was often unhappy, and now I am still unhappy.

From her POV I "gave up". I suppose I did. I did try couples therapy + gave our problems time, but in the end, I did end the relationship. I feel so guilty, so alone, and I hate how there is a battle between the logical and emotional side of my mind.

Everything I do isn't fun without her. Going on vacation, going to music festivals, going on walks, etc.. Nothing feels the same without her. I'm sorry. I miss you more than anything

Rawhide is a great venue when they hold the event outdoors. I had no complaints about the visual production, but did anybody else feel that the sound was not loud enough? I was dead center in front of the sound booth, and I had to take my earplugs out for the show to be acceptable. The openers were literally at the same volume as the intermission music too.