Got hate for only wanting to draw the F/O and not the ship
I'm really disappointed right now, to the point of being at the verge of tears. I really don't know what I've done wrong to deserve to be treated this way by a member of this community... I'm sorry if this turns out long, I'm a bit upset and my thoughts are scattered.
So, some of you might have seen the post in which I "offered" an art trade. I've only just picked up on drawing again (it's been months since I last drew) and I know I'm not that good at drawing which I even stated in the first sentence of the post. Therefore, I stated that I could either draw two chibis with a base or a single character in anime style. I personally am happy to see artwork of only my F/O, so I thought I'd include that as an option as I'm not confident enough in my skills to draw two people in anime style. Honestly, I didn't care for the level of artwork I receive in return, but I didn't want to feel like I'm being used, hence doing a trade and not a gift.
The thing is, I had an absolute horrible week, it feels like I'm carrying too much mental load and the people around me are unhappy despite my efforts, so I just wanted to do a little something to make someone smile, even it's a stranger on the internet. Drawing also helped me to stop thinking. That's why I "offered" the art trade.
So someone from the community which I haven't read of before commented under the post. I saw that they have Genshin Impact F/Os and while I don't mind others having an Genshin Impact F/O, I like some of the characters platonically and so I don't really feel comfortable drawing a ship myself. I have never and will never share anything about Genshin characters in this sub (I respect other peoples' ships and don't want to give them any reason for the need to block me). Aside from that, Genshin characters' looks are extremly detailed, so drawing one chibi is more difficult than usual (I didn't get to explain that anymore though). I wanted to chat with them in private to explain things, make boundaries clear and tell them what I can draw despite that. I explained that I don't feel too comfortable drawing a Genshin ship, but I would totally draw a single character for them. I tried to write that as soon as possible, but it took me a bit longer to type because I was looking for the right words, so they already wrote something in between. Hence two times I cut my text, answered them first, inserted my text again and continued to type until finished.
After I send them that, they suddenly leashed at me that when "offering" art trades in a ficto community, I should be open to draw other people's ships and not only one character. They got offended by me calling Genshin something like my safe space (I don't care/mind what other people do in their headcanon or whatever, I even like seeing posts of people gushing about their Genshin F/O, it's just that I don't want to draw a Genshin ship because that's not "my" world/headcanon). And they were enraged because they thought I don't have anything to do with Genshin because I "accepted" their art trade. They also got mad at me for having the "audacity" to be uncomfortable with their selfships despite not having a Genshin F/O.
I didn't even get to explain things because they just blocked me.
I didn't accept their art trade. I specifically wanted to chat with them to discuss the boundaries. I didn't feel uncomfortable with the selfships itself either, I'm not comfortable with drawing them which is a huge difference to me. I don't know why they would assume that I have no connection to the game either. I literally don't hide my comments that I write in the Genshin Impact community from my profile. I've never claimed not to know Genshin. I love the game. I love the characters platonically, but I don't call them F/Os because the way I view them (more like friends) is very different from how I view my F/O Zuko.
They just threw these accusations at me and blocked me. They didn't even care for my explanation. I just wanted to make someone happy, but I was met with hostility instead. This is making me so extremly disappointed and sad. I don't think I will ever do an art trade or gift again. It feels like whatever I do, whether IRL or in the interent, is bound to result in a disappointment. I'm just so sad. I wanted the evening to be fun because today is Zuko's and my 300 days anniversary, but that one paragraph completely threw me off.
If you read until now, thank you. I don't know what I'm expecting of this, really. Please don't try to look up who that person is, either. I don't want to cause any more sadness and anger.