u/Shiny_Iridescence

I don’t know what’s wrong with me, but there’s nothing in this world I despise more than college. It’s genuinely painful for me to study every single day for hours without end. But If I don’t do this, there’s no way I can pass. So I just spend all of my days in agony, sadness and almost disgust.

I wish I could just take some medicine that takes away all of my feelings so I can get through this.

(Please don’t tell me to drop out, because that’s not possible)

Vejo muita gente no mercado livre, market place, OLX, vendendo mídia física de jogos usados.

Eu achei que seria uma ideia boa pra pegar valores bons, porém o foda é que os preços são iguais o novo, ou as vezes um preço até maior. E nem to falando se jogos novos, são jogos lançados á vários anos já.

Por que o pessoal faz isso? Não tem motivo nenhum pra alguém comprar um produto usado pelo mesmo preço do novo.

I’ve been in college for 1 year and a half now. I study a lot. Like almost every day, I’m either at class or at the library studying. I’m scared that studying less will make me fail my exams, which absolutely cannot happen due to financial matters.

I feel like my feelings can’t be expressed through words like “anxiety”, “stress” or “sadness”. Reading, writing it down, memorizing. It feels painful. The action of studying causes me agony. There’s all there is to it.

I don’t know why I feel this way. But I remember feeling like that for several years now. It’s just that it’s gotten much more intense and frequent in college. There’s nothing I can do but endure it. Every day. Until it’s over. I just hope it will actually be over some day.

I’m just posting because I want to vent, and because I want to know if someone else relates to this feeling.

I’m in college and I have been giving my best to study. I passed all of the exams and got grades I’m satisfied with.

The problem is that even though I can force myself to study, it feels like I’m being tortured.

It’s just extremely boring and uninteresting. And the worst is that I’m having less and less free time, so it’s like I’m in mental agony 80% of the time I’m awake. I use my free time to play games and read, and it’s the only moment I can feel anything good at all.

At first, I was studying at home (I live alone). It became so unbearable it was like physically painful. I would start scratching my arms and neck until it hurt because I was so frustrated.

Now I’m studying at the library. The bad feeling is not as intense, but now It’s rather like a discomfort that’s slowly corroding my mind. It’s terrifying to think I’ll have to keep enduring for years. Because of this, even my personality changed to being constantly pessimistic and overall sad.

It’s strange, because when I try to explain it, most people can’t relate at all. They just think studying is a difficult task, but that’s about it. I feel like they can’t even begin to imagine the amount of misery it inflicts on me.

Not really looking for any advice, just want to know if anyone else feels this.

I’m looking for books that have mature themes (such as murders, violence and tragedies), but also have magical elements (time travel, magical creatures, fantasy worlds). I also really enjoy complex and grey characters.

Something like that can be seen in visual novels (Umineko and Higurashi are my favorites) and some manga too, but I’m looking for an actual book here. I was thinking about His Dark Materials but it’s Young Adult so idk if it’ll be enjoyable for me as an adult. I’m looking for something to get really obsessed about.

Eu me esforço muito, muito mesmo. Mas só pq tenho muito medo de pegar DP mesmo, pq já não sinto prazer nenhum nessa merda. A maioria dos dias sinto que estou agonizando sendo obrigada estudar. Eu não faço praticamente mais nada da minha vida.

E aí eu vejo pessoas que tem facilidade, estudam pouco e tiram nota MAIOR que a minha. Isso me mata. Na verdade, a grande maioria das pessoas estuda menos que eu, vejo pouquíssimas se matando igual eu faço.

Mas eu não quero mais isso pra minha vida. “Ah, mas você vai se tornar uma profissional melhor” mas eu não quero. Eu não quero trocar minha vida, minha sanidade, todo o meu prazer de viver por dinheiro.

Parece que tem algo de errado comigo. Parece que eu não sei estudar só o que precisa pra passar, eu PRECISO me matar de estudar por dias. Ou talvez eu só não seja inteligente o suficiente. Ou talvez só não saiba estudar da forma certa. Eu não sei, mas isso está me matando. Eu sinto que uma pessoa como eu não nasceu pra lidar com isso.