u/Shot-Computer-4382

Long story short, my dad doesn't want anything to do with me so if I leave I could possibly be homeless. I'm just down bad worse than I ever been, I have nothing and nobody & and not only my disgusting room mate but mostly everyone here is intolerable. But staying here could possibly fix my life for the better.

I haven't reacted just yet but im on the verge. But AIO if I change roommates, or spaz out on dude? He farts ALL DAY and NIGHT, EVERYDAY and if I keep the door closed and windows closed the room smells terrible, and I like being in my room but he makes it intolerable. He also hocks up loogies every fucking 45 seconds and spits in the trash can. It drives me fucking crazy and I wanna know if I'm overreacting...

I'm on day 8 of SR, I went 2 and a half days without peeking or edging. I've been on a strict fitness program and calorie deficit, even started meditating and grounding yesterday. I re downloaded Instagram like a moron and and a really hot girl almost made me risk it all. I edged for like 30 min, and pre came at least 5 times... I eventually realized the tradeoff isn't worth it and crushed about 60 pushups and 30 ab rollers.

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My basic point of this post is I feel like I failed myself and I'm empty. I didn't ejaculate though, and I still feel strong and confident physically and sort of still mentally

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Just need someone to talk me out of relapsing.