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Has innocence ever saved you? Or destroyed you!

Hehee! 2024, can't quite remember the specific month, i just know it was on a Saturday, 8am..the previous day i had my haircut from my Congolese barber, akanitoa from a solid 2 to 2.5.

8Am mimi huyoo.. Before haircut i-expire with a blue singlet moja kwa moja kutafuta an open liquor store,nilitafuta nikakosa then nikakumbuka i was in early.. And decided kutafuta a restaurant instead, i found one, nikaitisha 1/4 ya mananasi😂 and made myself comfortable, chaser ni emotions, kazi ni ku frown tu.

20 minutes later i asked niletewe bill and i was told it's sorted, in fact here's another black & white also paid for.. I was like daamn! Who's this little angel or should i say dark angel 😂 nikaambiwa it's that msupa on the corner.. I turned around to find a shawry with piercings left right centre, fegi brands zote kwa meza, ongeza oris and also a bottle of VAT.

I took my virago and walked to her, to get to know her and other short stories, tuka catch up 1,2 and i being a good listener gave her my ears, nodding where i have to and also a little touch of "damn" here and there and also "The world is not fair" when need be.

Msupa akanishow she does OF but doesn't do meet ups, i was like okayy because why should i care, i didn't even know what OF was.. What made me do a research and find out what OF was is that while heading home macho zote zilikua on us, i brushed it off thinking that they were probably wondering how fucked up this generation is or probably staring at her fat behind but at some point ilizidi and i had to ask her "Who tf are you"?

We went home to my place, we stayed for 2 weeks, aliniambia ni quite kazi I just hangout with her, her offer was 2k a day, we just chill, kazi yangu ni kukua therapist hapa na pale😂 na kutumwa this and that.

On the second day she realised i really had no idea who she was, so she decided to protect my innocence at all cost, she tried so much not to "sully" me, 2 weeks of day&night drinking, 12am napata confirmed you have received, at times 2k, at times 5 at times 10.

On the second week nilijiita mkutano and said this is enough, i still have a life to live, a career.. I told her naishia mtaa, and i really went home to detox and clear my head off..

Let me tell you Maina! My pal pale mtaa was taking some pics using my phone and saw a WhatsApp message hapo juu, i had saved her with her first name.. My pal asked, kwani unajuana na ****, referring to her second name, i was like "tf, unamjua aje", his response shattered me, " Nani hamjui", then proceeded to open his tweeter account to show me some proof!

Oof! Let me tell you Maina, nilijipima ukedi 1 month full, ile design nanunua kit daily, hadi nika confirm enyewe sinaa😂..when i returned to jiji she realised somehow i had found out who she was and she's been distant ever since, her worst fears had come to be, na hivo ndio my title as a therapist iliuma nje.

For any woman thinking about going the OF reute.. If you for my honest opinion I'll probably tell you "Don't ", your mental health matters in such a way that hata hio doo unasaka huko won't matter at all.

Hehee wueeh , ever found yourself in a situation whereby you're innocent but you can't prove it?

Let me tell you Maina!

Some few hours ago, nimenyeshewa kwa bike and kama wewe ni mtu wa android you probably can relate how the phone misbehave's😂.. I arrive home, dry myself up, brew some coffee then proceeds to make myself comfortable, nikaanza kuview status 1,2.

My phone has a slight crack but it was calm all along, timing ya shetani nayo ni maridadi, it started mis behaving immediately nimeguza status ya siz wa step mathe😂, the phone reacted with 5 back to back love emojis buana, the emojis were ❤️, 🥰, 😊, 😙&😌 respectively.

Nimeenda ku delete for all nikapata blue ticks, mai lord, hapa hata nikieaza anza kuji explain ety simu ili hung siezi jikwamua, it's done, acha tu niendee KC.

What's that one moment you couldn't explain yourself even though you were innocent?

I had a conversation with my mother today, and the conversation went from a casual hello, how's home all the way to.. "where did faith go".

Faith was this babe, she was just a friend i knew through this WhatsApp groups za kujoin Campo and other short stories..

I was young and stupid, probably innocent as well, this was before the world could sully me..

There was this games, truth or dare... I was like dare me girl! She said i need your mum's number and i was like, " what's the worst that could happen"

They used to call each other and talk for hours.. Myself and faith parted ways, like we just drifted away and lost contact completely.. I hadn't thought of her for years, until today.

Her name came up weirdly, we were just talking about how my brother has a beautiful daughter, Malia..

And i think that's when it occurred to her that she hasn't seen me with any girl since "Faith" Next question was, "Where's Faith".. I was like, who tf is Faith, of course i didn't say it out loud but still, i didn't recognise the Faith.. Like are you talking about Faith herself or faith itself?

What mum doesn't know is that, i have no Faith despite having known about Faith.. She was her friend.

Anyway, I'm out here drinking and thinking about Marcela from the book Don Quixote, her perspective about Beauty was that:

"Not all beauty inspire love, most beauty just delight the eye but don't captivate the heart ; just as well, because if all beauty did inspire love and conquer hearts, people's affections will be forever wondering, this way and that way without knowing when to come to rest".

There's infinite number of beautiful people, so the affections will be infinite.

I have no Faith myself but what mum doesn't know is that, after faith, there's been June, there's been Emmy who just got married to a Pastor! 😂

Wueeh,I'm 23M, last relationship was in 2022😂it ended right here on reddit..

She wasn't aware I'm on reddit so she went ahead and posted about how she was on a crossroad with two guys, one had linked her to some scholarship in Europe and the other poor guy was me.. I fitted the description's and i couldn't beat the allegations, i just had to cook myself as well in the comment section buana, i once in a while revisit that and lough out loud😂 will i ever fall in love again? Maybe or maybe not.. But i know that love is a beautiful thing! To love and to be loved!

Fyodor says that love will save us all but I'm doomed 😂

Anyway I'm not looking for love or anything of the sort.. Just looking for someone who's into classic literature, art, politics...or just someone open minded and and can have meaningful conversations, just come the way you are! Age is just but a string!