







My angel crossed the rainbow bridge today
My heart has been ripped out of my chest.








My heart has been ripped out of my chest.
The crisis holine wont pick up, even my local hotline isnt working. I have no friends, no one to talk to. I just wsnt to talk to someone. I have never felt more alone
Just some pizza lol
My entire life I've been very very tomboy, like crazy tomboy. Never wore dresses, makeup, only thing oit with boys. To the degree that when I came out as gay to my mom, she asked me to at least stay as her daughter and not be her son (ew, major ew of her to say btw)
But recently I've been really wanting to be more feminine and listen to the side of me that is begging me to buy that dress I keep eyeing and I'm so nervous that everyone in my life will think of me differently!
But my girlfriend will love it so I might do it anyway 😜
I technically have people i talk to. But rarely. No one ever reaches out to me. We have a group chat but they all talk to each other. It can go days without someone talking to me, not for me lack of trying. One of them is in another country and I'll ask if we can play a game but I'll get rejected. The other one, I have no idea, but he works with the 3rd friend so they talk daily and text all the time too. The 3rd is my roommate. There was a point during covid where I would have called him my best friend, but i guess that's simmered away. I hear him playing games with the other two friends while im sitting in my room. Even when we hang out, hes texting another friend. Ive tried and tried and tried to make friends outside of them but nothing sticks. No one nowhere wants to be my friend. I dont know what's wrong with me. Im so lonely
Every time I removed it thinking it was an eye boogie, it came back. Dumb, I know, im not touching it now. I feel like its getting worse as the hours tick by. What do I do? Its not slimey like a boogie either, its feels more like a scab.
We recently went back to long distance and seeing fun drawings of us would really cheer me up!
Side note but im really thinking about contributing here but im so nervous!
I'm at the point where I have to make 5 smoothies for him, but I can't find a way to make them anywhere and as far as my research goes, smoothies have been removed. So is this quest impossible now?
I feel like I have no one. No friends, no family. No one. I just want one person to be my friend