About 10 years ago I went one year without sex. I Now I decided to restart my celibacy journey. So far I am one month in and I feel really good. I am on a path of self discovery. Good luck everyone
I feel that this type of assault usually gets glossed over but actually happens a lot more than people think. I’ve had an on and off again relationship with a man I for lack of a better word refer to as my “ boyfriend “ for almost 4 years. He is narcissistic and sometimes very cruel to me. He can be extremely nice and charming and attentive, but when he’s mad he down right evil. Sometimes I don’t want to be intimate and in the past to avoid a fight a would give in. So many times I would say no and he would say “ you Should want to make love to me “. “ I can’t believe your being like that “” I took you out , I spent so much money on you “” you’ll never find a man like me “ To name some of the cruel things he has said to me over the years. I haven’t spent much time with him in the past month , but I saw him last night and we were watching a movie ( we aren’t together at this present time) and he tried to kiss me , I told him. Listen. I don’t want to have sex. And he proceeded to get upset and argue with me about the all the reasons I should want to sleep with him. I said but I don’t want to and that should be enough of a reason. He yelled and slut shamed me for my past and basically said “ if sex is off the table we are done “. So I left. I finally stood up for myself. And no longer let him use me for the fear or retaliation. I just wanted to get that off my chest in case someone else in a similar situation
I’ve been thinking about this a lot. There are people in my life I considered to be really good friends , but then I realized if they don’t show up for you actually or make a real effort to spend time with you ? Is that really a friend ? I have a friend of mine for many years. We used to be pretty close but in the past decade I would say it’s become mostly texting. She makes zero effort to actually see me but loves to be in all my business. I’m thinking it’s time to cut her off. She’s a nice girl , but I’m definitely scaling by my communications with her. Thoughts ???
You know one of those job fair things where people come to your table. My job sent me by my self. Was supposed to be me and my coworker , but she had a family emergency. I just wanted to share the horror with my fellow introverts. After 2 hrs I had to go sit in a corner alone 😂. Hundreds of people bombarding me. I felt like in need hazard pay today