u/Sleepy-Fox4235

What signs of healing have you noticed since going NC with your narc?

For me, I gained back the weight I lost from being so depressed and not eating. My nails have gotten stronger, and my skin is healthier. I have a much better diet now. My relationships with my loved ones improved - they knew something was off with the ex and were waiting for me to come around. I can’t remember the last time I had a panic attack. Most importantly, though, I’m happy. I’ve found peace.

Have you noticed any positive changes, whether it be physical or emotional, since you went no contact? I’d love to hear some more wins!

I was abused for almost 2 years when I was married. For a long time during and after the marriage, I would wake up in the middle of the night to my heart pounding and a panic attack. After about a year, that calmed down. I still wake up at night, but I’m usually more calm and don’t always remember my nightmares.

My issue now is that I am waking up in the middle of the night freezing, drenched in sweat. And for some reason, the sweat smells the way my exhusband’s sweat would when he used to get into bed at night. It makes me sick, and it’s extremely unsettling. I dissociate, even after showering and putting on clean clothes. I have a hard time going back to bed when I wake up like that, and it’s been affecting my sleep and energy levels.

Has anyone else experienced something similar, or found ways to cope with trauma-related triggers like this?