My regrowth sticks up no matter what I do to try and lay it flat but I know it’ll blend in soon. I’m really thankful. It’s been rough in my mental health but learning to accept it happened and could happen again.
It’s been about 9 weeks since I noticed this spot. I’m finally seeing some blondish hairs growing in. I tried the “wait it out” approach. I’m beyond excited. Still so self conscious though.
I’m a primary teacher. I have a teacher bestie that I consider a close friend outside of work as well, we’ll call Hannah. Hannah and I went to lunch together today (school’s out for summer) and she brought up something that made my heart sink.
We both are friendly with the same circle of people at work for the most part. Our school secretary, Sharon, is really cool. Very outgoing and has a strong personality that some love and some don’t vibe with. We get along very well though. She’ll give me huge hugs every morning and we’ll talk when I’m up in the office. I happened to run into her and her date at the river on Memorial Day and she hugged me and introduced me as “one of her favorite teachers” and left with “love you!” Last year on her birthday she invited several people from school to her birthday get together at a local winery for Bingo night. I went with my husband and lots of my work friends were there. We had a great time!
Back to lunch with Hannah, she mentioned she went to Sharon’s birthday the other day with other work friends and I just said “oh?” She said yeah you weren’t invited. And it was so awkward. She said everyone was asking where I was since her and I are kind of a duo. She said she told them the same, that I wasn’t invited. She didn’t know why, or maybe she’s not telling me. I don’t know what else was said but it seemed like they were making it a “thing” that I wasn’t there. She listed off all the people that attended and every person who was there last year was there again this year. Except me.
We continued talking and eventually I just broke out in tears. I already have awful rejection and exclusion issues and this really took a hit on me. I never had any problems with Sharon. I thought we were great. A few times I brought her an energy drink or her favorite snack because I can tell when she’s having a rough day in the office and wanted to help ease it. She also lost her ex husband recently so I have a lot of empathy for her.
Once I got home I just cried my eyes out. I’m embarrassed I was only one excluded. I’m confused where the disconnect is between us. I don’t want to bring it up to her because how awkward would that be? I feel so hurt by this to the point of wanting to completely distance myself from people once summer break is over. AIO?
If you’re looking for some sweet heat in a salsa, this is your guy! I only eat a little at a time bc it has me fighting for my life after about five chips but DANG it’s so good.
Would like to take my family to the river today. Where is a good river spot that people like to gather at for Memorial Day?
I feel queasy posting this. It’s taken a hit on my mental health. Found out about my AA shortly after first picture. They offered a steroid shot but I declined. Just took a new picture today of the spot. It looks maybe like there’s hair growing? It also looks bigger?
This is just so hard