I’m not incapable I swear but my situation is making it feel so. I just turned 20 last month and I’m starting uni in a couple of weeks. My parents are rich but I’m not. That’s the whole story. I am not even ‘allowed’ to earn a living. Why? Teaching at a school is looked down upon by my parents.

My father pays for my food (super basic) and education. Not a single penny more. I live in my parents’ home. It’s not my home. It’s a cage. I don’t have any privacy. No belongings of my own. Nothing I can call mine and just be.

Gutted by my situation, I tried an irl job. Teach Mathematics at my local school. I got the job purely because of my skills, not my intermediate education, although that was the basis of my skills. 10k per month which is not a great amount but for me, it’s everything. I announced this at home. My dad said no immediately. I looked at him in sheer disbelief and asked why.

“Bekaar schoolon main jaa ker apni zindigi barbaad na karo”

Excuse me? I was stunned. I had a lot to say but I chose not to say anything because as unstable as my parents are, they will make my life more hell if I talk back. I will talk but once the tables are turned. When I can face the consequences of my words. This is not the time. All I can do is just suck it up.

I tried online stuff as well. I have been trying since 2021 but I just can’t seem to get a hold of it. I made a minimal amount on Etsy. I learned copywriting from scratch. I learned video editing. I can write and proofread. I have a considerable-ish audience on Substack and Medium.

Another breadwinner of my home is my older sibling. She is simply too toxic and treats me like trash if I take anything materialistic from her so I don’t accept anything. I can’t go out except to college. Can’t meet friends. Can’t even make a damn phone call. Even a phone call is far-fetched; I can’t even have a bad mood without being answerable to my mother.

My physical health is weird. Not good at all. Idk what’s wrong but something is wrong. That excruciating toothache is another thing. Worst amongst these all is my mental health.

I’m looking for guidance. I can’t figure this out anymore. I’m tired of suffering, of being in pain, of waking up each day to live in the same misery. I want an out of this situation. The only way out in sight is haram. I don’t wanna do that. I’m scared of death but rn it seems like the only option. I don’t know what to do anymore.

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Assalam Alaikum.

I’m considering to take admission in FAST (Multan campu) but I cannot afford it, so I wanna take the Qarz e Hasna path.

Can any student with similar path as mine realistically describe what to expect?

Big thanks in advance!

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