u/Spawny_Memes

Here’s the link :) thank u to anyone who checks it out. I’m still trying to find better ways to record gameplay (buy a capture card) so sorry about the crunchy looking gameplay.

Password: “PLORB”

So I had a really mental break back in January last year, unfortunately it’s the first really bad ocd flair up I’ve ever had, not knowing I had it. My family is very old fashioned and when doctors suggested diagnoses, they just said no because “he’s just hyper, he’s just being a boy” etc. . To cut to the chase, I suffered from awful HOCD for about a year and a half and still deal with it, and I finally broke down in front of one of my best friends, unknown to me he he’s been diagnosed with OCD for most of his life, I was actually going through it at the exact same time as me, as he had a massive mental break right after he got engaged to his fiancé because of wedding stress+lame parents+overthinking and stuff. After finally giving this “curse” a name it’s opened up a world to me and I’m even reading a book about it, and going through the motions. My recovery has been going well, but I was almost comfortable in my bubble of sadness, as the amend sadness was almost like a reassuring cycle that I’d never hurt someone or myself (and for some context, my biggest fear of my entire life has been hurting somebody. The two fights I got into in high school. I couldn’t even hit the other guy and just let them wail on me because I can’t stand violence.) but the actual pursuit of happiness just feels so strange. my recovery is going well and I haven’t had an all day spiral in 3-4 weeks, which is insane because it was nearly every day at one point, it would pretty much for sure happen if I was at work. My compulsions are also down a pretty incredible amount, but as I prepare myself for future therapy so I could properly stop it, I’d like some advice for my personal recovery because the couple times that my HOCD has come back, it’s almost painfully intense and “convincing.” and I just feel awful trying to smile in the face of it. You could imagine I’m also pretty emotionally numb from having the same annoying internal thoughts for a year and a half. I’ve also noticed my triggers keep switching more rapidly, multiple times a day back and forth. Thank you to anyone who read this❤️

And if me of all people can do this you can do

Unless they said it otherwise, I personally think that the “gimmick” of the book (besides the divorced parents) is that they’re gonna play into the identity disorder that could come with the Omnitrix. He’s very visibly confused and questions how he feels as four arms, and straight up accidentally goes supernova as heatblast instantly, hinting at the idea that he doesn’t know what he’s doing at all. Given the unfinished look of the omnitrix as well, maybe this time around it’ll cause great mental strain on him, also back by the pretty excruciating, looking transformations that we’ve seen so far.