Having doubts about the choice I made.
I put my dog down two days ago.
She was 16 and aside from typical “old dog” issues she was still doing fine until suddenly last week.
All of a sudden she could no longer walk or stand, anytime I helped her and let her go her head would just tilt down and she’d fall over on her back. She also stopped eating and drinking water even when I tried to feed her.
We are still new to the area and didn’t have an established vet. Funny enough I had already booked an appointment for her just as a check up (she had a heart murmur). Was not expecting it to turn into a euthanasia visit.
The vet examined her and said she had no reflexes in her back legs and that she likely wouldn’t ever walk again.
She said we can work with a neurologist, feed my dog thru her stomach and all these other things but given my dog’s age and her other preexisting conditions (arthritis, early dementia, mostly blind and deaf, hear murmur, significant weight loss) it wouldn’t prolong her life by much and she would continue to soil herself.
Unfortunately my husband is out of the country so it was very stressful and difficult to navigate all of this on my own while being somewhere new. The vet was very patient with me and all the staff were so compassionate.
So I made the hard decision to let her go as the vet assured me she wasn’t in any pain at the moment and I would rather be a day too early than a day too late.
Now that I’ve had time to breathe and slow down a bit I couldn’t help but research my dog’s symptoms and came across “vestibular disease”.
I want to trust the vet, I did comment that it was almost like my dog had suffered a stroke to which she responded it could’ve been something like that, that a blood clot could’ve very likely caused her sudden immobility but without tests she couldn’t confirm. She also said it could very likely be neurological. But there was no mention of vestibular disease.
Reading more about vestibular disease and seeing similar symptoms and how most dogs recover from it has me second guessing my choice. I can’t help but think I gave up on my dog too soon, in a highly emotional state and without all the research.
The only thing giving me peace with my choice is that I was able to be there for her and hold her until her very last breath, and it was very peaceful.