Did anyone here want to John Henry neurotypicals growing up? Can't stop competing.

When I was growing up, I hated the disability label so I became a major supporter of libertarians like Murray Rothbard and write on my arm: he who does not work, neither shall he eat. Staff at my full segregation emotionally disturbed public school (District 75) used to march us around at left wing "disability" marches which I hated. I printed up stuff about Ronald Reagan's Welfare Queen when we were being put into transition planning, so my traditional immigrant parents were able to refuse transition planning for me growing up.

I made a point of wanting to John Henry neurotypicals growing up. That means I wanted to destroy my body mind and spirit so that I would keep up with them especially people who went to neurotypical schools. John Henry was a guy who outworked a machine and finally died. For example I obsessed over Brooklyn Tech and competing with students from there IQ wise, because my neurotypical sibling went there, and I also copied notes from the school, which was a neurotypical school.

I didn't see why I had to be in special ed or how I worked less hard except for the label. I really resented the way my brain worked so much and still do at the age of 46. And now when my adult diagnosed friends say "well I worked hard in school" to explain why they never caught a full segregation order, they don't understand how much I hustled at the playground and public library to get notes from neurotypical schools and students in order to copy so that I would be less "dumb" by studying as much as I can every day.

Because of my diagnosis and label growing up, I have to be the best at everything to make up for how I treated my parents as a kid.

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u/SquirrelofLIL — 4 days ago

Refinance Loans Through Lower East Side People's Credit Union

Hi folks, an adjustable rate mortgage (ARM) in my building has been a thorn in my side for several years and it has come to a head. The mortgage originated around 40-45 years ago when the city "came into the building and renovated everyone's apartment", i.e. destroying the structure of the apartments. We are trying to hold back an HOA FEE increase.

I recently learned about this from long term tenants. Information was kept from me for several years until it came to a head. Everyone, including the super, has known about this, but I did not. The super has trolled me multiple times as well. This building is under HDFC. I am one of 2 shareholders under age 60. But a lot of power players inside the building are not shareholders, but relatives of shareholders.

Long story short, we have to refinance immediately. Has anyone here refinanced through non profit, less expensive banks such as the Lower East Side People's Credit Union. I will be contacting neighborhood groups such as Banana Kelly and Mid Bronx Desperadoes for advice on this matter.

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u/SquirrelofLIL — 13 days ago

Not sure if this post is welcome. It's about religion and the stay at home daughter movement.

How do I join Christian patriarchy as an adult and become more trad, and pass as a homeschooler? So I'm into conservative Christianity (Doug Wilson, Latin masses, learning some Koine and Latin, Reformed thought, Thomistic thought, maybe some Orthodox thought) from a eastern religion and atheist background in an ultra liberal VHCOL city where everyone I know uses terminology like "play" for fornication and "partnered" for married.

I became a Christian this year after not finding what I want in traditional Chinese polytheism especially the fundamentalist lifestyle and also worshiping multiple gods was confusing to me spiritually.

I've been attending church sporadically since 2016 but made a commitment to go every week starting at Septuagesima and also I prayed the Daily Office and the Tridentine Breviary on and off to kill time on public transit before I made a commitment to study the great books (homeschooling) while on public transit.

I'm a 46 year old, complementarian who wants to be a stay at home daughter and more sheltered, but I have to work ft to pay my mortgage because my parents remigrated to China. I learned how to do canning of peaches since this is a trad wife skill.

I want to learn to keep sweet and to adopt a more trad and patriarchal mindset in being a help meet. I'd also like to learn to become classical Christian educated, homeschool style and deprogram myself of satanic public schooling.

How do I deprogram myself of an atheist public education and adopt a homeschooling worldview that is liberal arts based while being against the modern world ? I already glamorize poverty. Although I'm too old for marriage how do I change I mentality so it's more like someone homeschooled and raised Christian?

Most church people here are die hard normies and a lot of them are left wing. And I been to a lot of different denominations.

I've attended portions of Alpha, RCIA, and classes like that although I don't like most denominations because they are too liberal. Maybe this is more of a sociological question than a religious or spiritual question.

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u/SquirrelofLIL — 15 days ago

Store to get dried or fresh gluten / seitan in Manhattan where it won't go bad

It's getting warmer so I like to make cold gluten / seitan with wood ears, Lily's, mushrooms, bamboo and peanuts. However I have trouble finding the dried or fresh seitan in the city.

Which Chinese supermarkets on the LES have it at the lowest cost. I tried to go to Queens but the 44 bus is extremely slow and I don't want to double bus on the weekend. Preferably dried so it doesn't go bad quickly unlike the refrigerated one. Where do ya'll go to.

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u/SquirrelofLIL — 17 days ago

Where to get Sugar Free drink syrups for the best price

Hi folks I am trying to score sugar free Rooh Afza, sugar free Ribena, and sugar free Foxs U Bet. Where can I score these. Foxs U Bet is the essential ingredient in egg cream soda. I'm willing to travel to different boros outside The Bronx and Manhattan but it has to be worth my while.

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u/SquirrelofLIL — 22 days ago

Concerned about lids in the heat

Hi folks, I'm super new so this might be a dumb question. Since I'm mostly going to can in the late summer I'm wondering if there's any problem with keeping lids in the kitchen cabinet, or should I keep them in the living room.

My apartment regularly gets above 95-100 degrees in the daytime during the summer. Should I buy extra ones just in case. Air conditioning is not in my budget and I'm fine with the temperature for my own body, I'm mostly concerned about storing my fruits.

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u/SquirrelofLIL — 28 days ago
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Are the listings on the NYC AGO site accurate?

Hi folks, I've noticed that the NYC AGO site says that Immaculate Conception on East 150th st has a Kimball organ. However, I have never heard this played. Every time I've attended the church, they have played acoustic guitar. Is this information actually accurate and should I bother them about it?

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u/SquirrelofLIL — 1 month ago

Hi folks, I would like to ask about the mainline Protestant term Inclusive Orthodoxy and whether or not my view as an Independent Protestant fit in here.

I prefer a high church ritual but am fine with any sort of church governance with especial interest in Congregationalist or fully independent polity. I go to confession before taking communion but it is only found in one Protestant Church. But honestly I do not care about polity. I like the liturgical year and attend a variety of churches that offer such rituals such as Episcopal and Catholic churches. I enjoy the 90-110 minute Latin Mass and the things that go with it but I am not a Roman Catholic.

My personal views are very different from the Catholic church and conservative denominations. I don't support homosexuality, fornication, abortion or divorce and I do believe that the government should be smaller. I believe the government is too big and that taxes are too high.

I don't think that "wives obey your husbands" in the Tridentine Wedding Service or the quote about Perfidious Jews in the Good Friday service needs to be censored because it's not referring to all Jews and my friend who was raised Jewish and is now a trad Cath wasn't offended. But like I'm not the one that it's targeted toward so it's not up to me.

At the same time I believe the death penalty should be allowed to exist and that war can be just, which are against Catholicism. As a 90s Milton Friedman economics person I think that distributism makes no sense. Some of my far left views are that churches should be able to decide on a church by church basis whether to allow womens ordination.

I believe that non abortifacient contraception by married couples should be allowed if there is a serious medical reason for it, but that people should try to be fruitful and multiply. I believe that IUI is permissible for married couples but not IVF. Another far left view is that believers should lobby against no fault divorce, but that people should be allowed to be divorced and remarried once. Not twice.

These are some of my liberal views. As you can see they are in line with conservative Evangelical Protestantism but not in line with Mainline Protestantism or Catholicism.

Is this considered to be open orthodoxy. Anyone? Bueller?

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u/SquirrelofLIL — 2 months ago