Did anyone here want to John Henry neurotypicals growing up? Can't stop competing.
When I was growing up, I hated the disability label so I became a major supporter of libertarians like Murray Rothbard and write on my arm: he who does not work, neither shall he eat. Staff at my full segregation emotionally disturbed public school (District 75) used to march us around at left wing "disability" marches which I hated. I printed up stuff about Ronald Reagan's Welfare Queen when we were being put into transition planning, so my traditional immigrant parents were able to refuse transition planning for me growing up.
I made a point of wanting to John Henry neurotypicals growing up. That means I wanted to destroy my body mind and spirit so that I would keep up with them especially people who went to neurotypical schools. John Henry was a guy who outworked a machine and finally died. For example I obsessed over Brooklyn Tech and competing with students from there IQ wise, because my neurotypical sibling went there, and I also copied notes from the school, which was a neurotypical school.
I didn't see why I had to be in special ed or how I worked less hard except for the label. I really resented the way my brain worked so much and still do at the age of 46. And now when my adult diagnosed friends say "well I worked hard in school" to explain why they never caught a full segregation order, they don't understand how much I hustled at the playground and public library to get notes from neurotypical schools and students in order to copy so that I would be less "dumb" by studying as much as I can every day.
Because of my diagnosis and label growing up, I have to be the best at everything to make up for how I treated my parents as a kid.