u/St4r_9irl

17f (soon 18) looking for friends :)

I'm not in college and wasn't very popular in secondary school so I don't really know/meet anyone my age so I thought I'd try find people this way. I'm 17F nearly 18. I love marvel, starwars, the boys and percy jackson. I love rap, hip hop and indie music some of my faves are radiohead, eminem, wu tang clan and nirvana. I'm pretty much into anything that could be considered "nerdy". I'm in the reading area (closeish to London) but I'm happy to make some online friends as well🤷

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u/St4r_9irl — 10 days ago

I need some friends

This feels so weird to post but I'm not in college and wasn't very popular in secondary school so I don't really know/meet anyone my age so I thought I'd try find people this way. I'm 17F nearly 18. I love marvel, starwars, the boys and percy jackson. I love rap, hip hop and indie music some of my faves are radiohead, eminem, wu tang clan and nirvana. I'm pretty much into anything that could be considered "nerdy". I'm in the reading area (closeish to London) but I'm happy to make some online friends as well🤷

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u/St4r_9irl — 10 days ago

I need friends

This feels so weird to post but I'm not in college and wasn't very popular in secondary school so I don't really know/meet anyone my age so I thought I'd try find people this way. I'm 17F nearly 18. I love marvel, starwars, the boys and percy jackson. I love rap, hip hop and indie music some of my faves are radiohead, eminem, wu tang clan and nirvana. I'm pretty much into anything that could be considered "nerdy". I'm in the reading area (closeish to London) but I'm happy to make some online friends as well🤷

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u/St4r_9irl — 10 days ago

I need friends

This feels so weird to post but I'm not in college and wasn't very popular in secondary school so I don't really know/meet anyone my age so I thought I'd try find people this way. I'm 17F nearly 18. I love marvel, starwars, the boys and percy jackson. I love rap, hip hop and indie music some of my faves are radiohead, eminem, wu tang clan and nirvana. I'm pretty much into anything that could be considered "nerdy". I'm in the reading area (closeish to London) but I'm happy to make some online friends as well🤷

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u/St4r_9irl — 10 days ago

I need friends

This feels so weird to post but I'm not in college and wasn't very popular in secondary school so I don't really know/meet anyone my age so I thought I'd try find people this way. I'm 17F nearly 18 and I'm bisexual? I don't really know what to label it. I love marvel, starwars, the boys and percy jackson. I love rap, hip hop and indie music some of my faves are radiohead, eminem, wu tang clan and nirvana. I'm pretty much into anything that could be considered "nerdy". I'm in the reading area (closeish to London) but I'm happy to make some online friends as well🤷

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u/St4r_9irl — 10 days ago

I didn't know if I should tag this as I need advice or a vent? I guess it's kinda both. It's a pretty long read and will mention sensitive subjects but if anyone has a min to have a look I'd appreciate it.

I'm 17F (18 in a few months) and I've been struggling with depression since I was about 10 I've had what I would consider a pretty rough time since I could remember (parents splitting and getting back together alot, being homeless, moving schools, brother having cancer) and it's effected me alot.

I enjoyed primary school, it was like a safe space for me I guess, my parents splitting up and getting back together made my home life pretty inconsistent (I also moved far away at one point and then back, along with moving houses another time but staying at the same school) then in yr 4 I became homeless. I was in 2 different emergency living places for a Yr and a half and eventually got placed where I am now. I moved schools after I was placed and from then on I hated it. I felt like crying when I walked into the classroom I now realise that this was anxiety and not to the level people generally experience, at the time I didn't know so just kept it to myself.

I struggled alot in secondary school - just as I joined my brother got lymphoma and just after that covid happened. I didn't go to school very often when my brother was sick and then isolated longer than other people due to him being vulnerable. I think I sorta forgot how to interact with people. By the time I actually went back to secondary school I was an anxious mess, It was around this time I started to sh. It wasn't to end my life or a cry for help. I don't really know how to explain it. It was like a last ditch choice for control over my life and it became an addiction. I basically skipped most of my school life and failed all my gcses except English.

I got a job as soon as I turned 16 had a few since then and finally got a job I love last year I'm 17 now and have a good amount of savings, a good job which I enjoy, I haven't sh in 2ish yrs. I'm supposed to be going to the NHS adults mental health team (I was told this in October and still haven't heard anything from them but I expected that after waiting for long for CAHMS) but from an outside perspective I'm doing good. My mum, my friend, my family. They all think I'm ok.

I'm not, I don't know why, everything is going well and I'm still depressed, I'm so tired of hearing "it'll get better soon" it's been 8 years of feeling like this. I've done therapy cbt and dbt my mums paid for private (couldn't afford it any more) and I've had all that Cahms can offer. I've tried meds (sertraline and fluoxetine) I've done all the mindfulness, breathing exercises, physical exercise. Meds where my last resort and they haven't worked. I've told people for years that something is wrong with me, that it's not just teen angst or regular depression. I know something is broken.

It anyone has any advice of what I can do or can give me any pointers about what could be wrong I'd appreciate it alot, if anyone wants more context for things and think they could help I'll happily answer anything. I just need something that could help.

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u/St4r_9irl — 20 days ago

I didn't know if I should tag this as I need advice or a vent? I guess it's kinda both. It's a pretty long read and will mention sensitive subjects but if anyone has a min to have a look I'd appreciate it.

I'm 17F (18 in a few months) and I've been struggling with depression since I was about 10 I've had what I would consider a pretty rough time since I could remember (parents splitting and getting back together alot, being homeless, moving schools, brother having cancer) and it's effected me alot.

I enjoyed primary school, it was like a safe space for me I guess, my parents splitting up and getting back together made my home life pretty inconsistent (I also moved far away at one point and then back, along with moving houses another time but staying at the same school) then in yr 4 I became homeless. I was in 2 different emergency living places for a Yr and a half and eventually got placed where I am now. I moved schools after I was placed and from then on I hated it. I felt like crying when I walked into the classroom I now realise that this was anxiety and not to the level people generally experience, at the time I didn't know so just kept it to myself.

I struggled alot in secondary school - just as I joined my brother got lymphoma and just after that covid happened. I didn't go to school very often when my brother was sick and then isolated longer than other people due to him being vulnerable. I think I sorta forgot how to interact with people. By the time I actually went back to secondary school I was an anxious mess, It was around this time I started to sh. It wasn't to end my life or a cry for help. I don't really know how to explain it. It was like a last ditch choice for control over my life and it became an addiction. I basically skipped most of my school life and failed all my gcses except English.

I got a job as soon as I turned 16 had a few since then and finally got a job I love last year I'm 17 now and have a good amount of savings, a good job which I enjoy, I haven't sh in 2ish yrs. I'm supposed to be going to the NHS adults mental health team (I was told this in October and still haven't heard anything from them but I expected that after waiting for long for CAHMS) but from an outside perspective I'm doing good. My mum, my friend, my family. They all think I'm ok.

I'm not, I don't know why, everything is going well and I'm still depressed, I'm so tired of hearing "it'll get better soon" it's been 8 years of feeling like this. I've done therapy cbt and dbt my mums paid for private (couldn't afford it any more) and I've had all that Cahms can offer. I've tried meds (sertraline and fluoxetine) I've done all the mindfulness, breathing exercises, physical exercise. Meds where my last resort and they haven't worked. I've told people for years that something is wrong with me, that it's not just teen angst or regular depression. I know something is broken.

It anyone has any advice of what I can do or can give me any pointers about what could be wrong I'd appreciate it alot, if anyone wants more context for things and think they could help I'll happily answer anything. I just need something that could help.

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u/St4r_9irl — 20 days ago