u/Strange-guy-91

You guys helped me to get a bit into death metal a while ago, now I want some more. I want something with really cool riffs, but I still struggle to enjoy "too heavy" vocals. I can stand them if it's not too much of them and the riffs are really cool (like some of Dismember), but genuenly I prffer the Death's type of vocals. Thank you!

I have a special interest in making battle jackets (metal subculture thing) for a year now. It takes a lot of my time. I already have like 4 of them and I caught myself thinking of starting the 5th one. I NEED to live. I NEED to study. It brings nothing to my live, and my jackets are staring to look too "fashinable" and I fell all of this is kinda pointless.

I need to study to prepare for uni, but all I'm doing is just painting and seweng. Is there any possible way to stop it?

I'm so happy to finaly write these words. I remember being treated like shit since I was a child, because I couldn't do some things and explain myself. I was always the weird one in the most band way it can be. But now it seems that I made some progress to the point I'm accepted. I finaly feel that people enjoy talking to me, they say that I tell about things in a really interesting way and a lot of them said they genuenly like me.

It took me so many years of practice and expieriance to learn how interactions work. I still am a bit awkward sometimes, and people still see me as weird, but they don't pay much attention to it in general. I still don't have any friends, but I have people I like to go out with, so I don't feel as lonley. Last week I was invited to a bithday party for the first time in my life and I felt so fucking happy. I finaly felt how is it like — being a human in other people's eyes.

I still have many things I struggle with, I still have noise sensitivities, still sometimes think I don't deserve anything because of some unimportant mistake I make, but compared to how it was before... I'm just so happy I escaped the lonliness. Because before, I couldn't even be sure about who I am and what I am feeling. I couldn't discribe it to other people and even to myself, and I thought, that every "ousider story" was not about me, because I am one in a bad way. Just because I couldn't tell what was going on.

I just want to share my excitment with you, so you don't feel as you couldn't ever be seen and heard. And if you struggle right now, I just hope you can find people/ways that will help you get out of this cage. I also want to thank you all for the all support I've got in this community!