I know I’m supposed to take it with food but i took my first dose of it on an empty stomach this morning. A couple hours later i experienced two bouts of diarrhea and clamminess/sweating and nausea. That’s all subsided now and I’ll do my best to take it with food tomorrow, but does that sound normal for starting out on this med or should I talk to the dr?
I’m really going through it at the moment and im struggling to choose to use the healthy coping mechanisms that I know I should, because in the moment when I should use them my brain is like “actually that’s a stupid idea, do the easy thing” and then I end up either using eating disordered or self harming behaviors and I guess I struggle to care enough about myself to want to push through that choose something different. My dr thinks I’m just not cooperating which is frustrating because it’s not that i dont want help it is that my brain finds a reason to shut down most ideas. It’s trying to protect me from things going down the way they did a few years ago when similar things were happening. But my issue genuinely isn’t that I don’t want help, I don’t want to have things get as bad as they used to be cause I’ve made a lot of progress but I don’t know how to access that help when my brain shuts it down.. if that makes any sense?? Does anyone relate?
I self harm by intentionally drawing blood from my veins and blowing them on purpose. It scares me sometimes - I have a huge hematoma today from a fresh one. I booked a drs appt because I want to not want to do this but I feel so stupid.
I have relapsed lately and I feel so stupid. The dr looks at me like I’m an idiot. I know I’m too old for this but life is super overwhelming and I feel like I have no other way to cope that actually feels “helpful” in the moment. I feel like this problem should’ve expired at adulthood.. but here I am. :/
I can say those words online. But I can’t say them out loud. It’s pathetic. I was recently honest ish with my dr and I regret it. It brought everything I’ve been somewhat h successful at hiding up to the surface and I am having a hard time coping. I keep having thoughts of not wanting to be here anymore but I have obligations I have to keep. And a couple concerts I’m genuinely looking forward to. But besides that.. life is overwhelming and I am alone in it. 💔
I have had horrible mental health care experiences before. I am wondering if anyone knows the exact parameters of when a dr might potentially hospitalize someone against their will. I am not actively suicidal but I do struggle with depression and thoughts of suicide. I am functionally depressed though, I work full time, I live alone, I have animals and i get by. My issue is that I’m worried that if I am honest with the dr about other mental health issues that I am struggling with (an eating disorder and some self harm) that it will cost me my job and home and freedom and I just, can’t.
Before anyone asks, yes I have a counselor. I am not a teen I’m a woman in my 30s (I know it’s pathetic to still be struggling with this stuff at my age). I just am really scared about not being able to get help without it costing me like it did in the past.
Any experiences or advice appreciated.