u/SuggestiveSiren

How does that make sense? You hurt the ones you love the most, is that it?

I love you in all the ways I cant express it.

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I love you in all the ways I know how to in my circumstances.

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I love you in all they ways you haven't thought about.

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I love you for following in my footsteps. I also hate you for that but love you more than hate.

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I love you and it has no where to go.

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If I were to summon you? I want to make you feel at home but sometimes I don't know how to. I'm sorry.

That's how I'll know it's for me.

To: R

There's another princess in your life maybe her name is mine. What if you're just talking about her? And I could just be an accident.

That makes me sick. This isn't for me is it? I can't think it is because its just a fucking script right? That I'm just some delusional fan who wont fuck off right? RIGHT?

FUCK YOU. Don't you dare get jealous of my partner. Oh the irony of suggestion which is now turning into gaslighing myself.

THAT IS EXACTLY WHY I MADE A PLAYLIST THAT WAS SUGGESTIVE. IT WASN'T YOURS to find it was mine. I never asked you to find me. You took that initiative. Walking in my steps thats how you showed me your love?

I was some rando

How could I truly love you? I don't even know you. You won't let me know you. Is your name even Bryan? I'm looking for somone in the dark that doesn't want to be found and I just want a fucking god damn truthful conversation with you but that seems unreasonable. Where is the truth? because I don't know what to believe.

Don't you fucking dare say you love me. I can't settle for the ghost of you. I'm not taking a chance on a ghost. I did not intentionally think to summon you at first, it was a confession to myself and sure I guess to you too. I don't know my own power. It was a diary in the void, well not in the void because you're intelligent. I won't make that mistake again.

Grieving you,

S

You know lust is great and all but would you be there for me when I need you most? Like the death of a parent? Or a pet animal? Or a parent having cancer? Or if God forbid if I got sick. All of life's heaviest moments, where there is darkness, since you love it so much, you would be there?

Because in those moments who you have with you is everything. Reality is scary. Life can be scary. I really think it's time to let you go. Thank you for the lessons but I don't think you would be there for me from the behaviors I've seen from you.

Love you, in a weird way.

S