u/Suitable_Reading_962

I desperately want to shift to the timeline where I was born inside the right body and I never lost my childhood best friend or got depression and insanely bullied
I am getting mental health but I feel drained and exhausted however
I miss being younger and not feeling disgusting and I feel lonely and I made myself a script and the script is basically almost identical to the current reality we live in just with a few edited stuff
And I am thinking of staying in the alt timeline forever honestly if I do shift

Please teach me how quickest and fastest way

I have a crush on this guy at school and I am lowkey curious how I can get woody to say hi to him 🪵 is there certain things guys like when a girl does something to them?

I have a crush at school and I’m curious

So to paint the picture I was extremely bullied and gotten depressed and went through a lot of shit (it’s a long story) and I lost my old best friend I got self hate and I am struggling and I just in general went through a lot

I’m in high school now a more accepting crowd and I’m not getting bullied obsessively or at all anymore, things have gotten better however..

I switched already between two friend groups because they weren’t that nice

First one didn’t care abt me got anoyyed when I tried w them

Second friend group, had a huge fat crush on a guy in there and means him were talking and cool however like he just started being rude and him and his friends didn’t care about me like I was floater friend and was trying way too hard to impress them

And I tried going back to the first group but again floater friend so I left

I met this guy when I was trying to be friends again w the first group, who I’ll call Alex (not his real name) And I met Alex while I was still trying with the first friend group I met

the thing is, I do have a small crush on him despite the fact he’s a very awkward guy like look wise and personality (he’s a short smaller guy with big ears, and acne)

Alex is nice and all however he’s in fact different..

Like I cannot make regular teen jokes and when I try he says “I don’t get jokes” or doesn’t laugh And like when I try talking regularly he talks like an adult or like someone interviewing you

I told my therapist abt Alex and she explained to me he definitely has Autism because Autism means like a person doesn’t have the brain neurons to like read rooms or emotions and they struggle and think differently and there’s certain levels and she said he definitely is probably on the level where he’s in fact more intelligent but he still thinks differently and stuff because I will admit he is pretty intelligent

And he doesn’t understand social cues at all like he cannot read when I’m annoyed or not too much in the mood I remember when he said and says all the time awkwardly “okay so what do u wanna talk about?” I say idk what do u want to? When I’m not in mood and eventually I stopped sitting w him for like 3 weeks and I like hanged out with my other Friend who I’ll call John

John is cool regular teen my age reads room fun to be with however only down fall is he’s a year and grade above me so when he graduates I’m going to be alone and that’s why I’m worried and trying to find a fried my grade and my age

And lately I been sad cause like the second friend group I said w my crush, I am friends and kinda talk w one of the people who I’ll call Emma and Emma told me her and them are going to watch the amazing digital circus finale which makes me sad and jealous cause I have no one to watch the finale with or relate to and John doesn’t watch it and my other best friend who I known since 5 grade she doesn’t watch it and btw she goes to a different school

Today I was talking to Alex at class today and I asked if u watch digital circus because I brought a digital circus toy and he said “yes I do” and since John was gone that day I asked him if I can join him at lunch he said sure

And today at lunch we were talking regularly but I do sense awkwardness still and like there’s times where he doesn’t know what to say or he doesn’t know how to keep a conversation going but it was fine however like I was thinking I could still sit w him but just not all the time but I am not too sure

When I talked about feeling alone and just wanting friends my Therapist explained I need to work on self love and confidence and that will attract people towards me

Can you please give me advice and just let me know what I should do in this situation? Should I talk to Alex? Should I just be neutral? Is this mainly just because I think he’s cute or I just want someone who will watch the Finale with me? Please help me and thank you

So to paint the picture I was extremely bullied and gotten depressed and went through a lot of shit (it’s a long story) and I lost my old best friend I got self hate and I am struggling and I just in general went through a lot

I’m in high school now a more accepting crowd and I’m not getting bullied obsessively or at all anymore, things have gotten better however..

I switched already between two friend groups because they weren’t that nice

First one didn’t care abt me got anoyyed when I tried w them

Second friend group, had a huge fat crush on a guy in there and means him were talking and cool however like he just started being rude and him and his friends didn’t care about me like I was floater friend and was trying way too hard to impress them

And I tried going back to the first group but again floater friend so I left

I met this guy when I was trying to be friends again w the first group, who I’ll call Alex (not his real name) And I met Alex while I was still trying with the first friend group I met

the thing is, I do have a small crush on him despite the fact he’s a very awkward guy like look wise and personality (he’s a short smaller guy with big ears, and acne)

Alex is nice and all however he’s in fact different..

Like I cannot make regular teen jokes and when I try he says “I don’t get jokes” or doesn’t laugh And like when I try talking regularly he talks like an adult or like someone interviewing you

I told my therapist abt Alex and she explained to me he definitely has Autism because Autism means like a person doesn’t have the brain neurons to like read rooms or emotions and they struggle and think differently and there’s certain levels and she said he definitely is probably on the level where he’s in fact more intelligent but he still thinks differently and stuff because I will admit he is pretty intelligent

And he doesn’t understand social cues at all like he cannot read when I’m annoyed or not too much in the mood I remember when he said and says all the time awkwardly “okay so what do u wanna talk about?” I say idk what do u want to? When I’m not in mood and eventually I stopped sitting w him for like 3 weeks and I like hanged out with my other Friend who I’ll call John

John is cool regular teen my age reads room fun to be with however only down fall is he’s a year and grade above me so when he graduates I’m going to be alone and that’s why I’m worried and trying to find a fried my grade and my age

And lately I been sad cause like the second friend group I said w my crush, I am friends and kinda talk w one of the people who I’ll call Emma and Emma told me her and them are going to watch the amazing digital circus finale which makes me sad and jealous cause I have no one to watch the finale with or relate to and John doesn’t watch it and my other best friend who I known since 5 grade she doesn’t watch it and btw she goes to a different school

Today I was talking to Alex at class today and I asked if u watch digital circus because I brought a digital circus toy and he said “yes I do” and since John was gone that day I asked him if I can join him at lunch he said sure

And today at lunch we were talking regularly but I do sense awkwardness still and like there’s times where he doesn’t know what to say or he doesn’t know how to keep a conversation going but it was fine however like I was thinking I could still sit w him but just not all the time but I am not too sure

When I talked about feeling alone and just wanting friends my Therapist explained I need to work on self love and confidence and that will attract people towards me

Can you please give me advice and just let me know what I should do in this situation? Should I talk to Alex? Should I just be neutral? Is this mainly just because I think he’s cute or I just want someone who will watch the Finale with me? Please help me thank you <3