u/SunnSaiyaan

Who else wakes up around 5± ?

I copied this base at 4300+ and it did good now it's getting wrecked.

Looking for something good. 4-5 starrable by good players will do fine

Basically the title ^^

Hi. I'm looking for a free IPTV app for my android phone. Right now i got iptv smarters but it does not support stalker. TIA

Assalam Alaikum.

There's this hadith; where Nabi a.s answered its your mother 3x times upon being asked and on 4th he said your dad. Most you you must have read this hadith. So this hadith has been negatively affecting me.

So I'm a practicing muslim. Have moderate islamic Knowledge, 5x salah with jama'ah. Stays away from interest, fornication and alcohol etc you get the idea right.

But last night had been so harsh on me I'd want to eliminated myself if it wasn't for lifetime hell we mus believe in. I've been like this before but this time twas was different as in i had control over myself and the pain was such magnitude that death seemed a fair trade.

So i do love my mom i pray for her long life and health. I take her to hospitals. Do her meds. but i feel sad to write she's a toxic/controlling type of person and has been her life. She's good with you if you're living on her terms and fighting her fights (in relatives/asians, M/E would understand this) which i stopped taking part in long ago she even has used me few times against my dad and she twists and manipulates things bw me and dad. She all the time gives me feelings that I'm her loser child. Until last night i was bearing everything.

We live in joint family system. Whenever there are relatives (her favorite ones specially her family) she forces me to come sit with them when those people disrespect me and have no interest in talking to me and i feel bad there. If i say no there's a fight. She also forces me to go with them whenever they need me and i go. Forces me to sit with her brother who won't respond even when I'm first to talk. She forces me do calls ; him and her and that she knows i hate that i even told her buy a phone.

Yesterday there was different family here (also relatives) and she made me sit and i was happy and well she wouldn't let me talk (happened more thn once) and i left. Right after she came to me feigning ignorance that why'd i leave. I told her straight why'd you make me sit when you don't let me speak. Even i asked her why not go talk to women and leme talk to guys. Well we had a heated moment there and i fear both sides. Disrespecting my prophet or losing my self respect.

I've lost respect in eyes of my spouse; she understands there's no man in the house after my dad and there's actually a women in the house. And she knows i won't go against her. I asked her something while she was doing something related to mom and for 3 hours i sat there and she didn't even think of me and honestly i feel worse. My spouse even wouldn't take me serious

She's very soft with my younger brother who treats her like shxt, even cuses to her.

Now i want to leave this home for once and all and never return I've tried things to go smooth for 30 years and i don't think anything will change now. they'd be okay they have enough people to take care for them.

The phone thing and other alot of things seem small yes i know they do but these aren't the base. It was already build. These are the straws that broke my back.

Shaytaan has been so aggressively pushing things on me but I'm trying to control myself.

I'm in deep pain my dear brothers and sisters. I think i have lost in life why am i given such tough people to live with. I wish i was born orphan or to poor people who'd just throw me to outside world i kno poor guys much happier thn me. What do i do? Sorry long text one more thing I'll mention. My and my cuzzy went for moms something and that night was storm. As we came in cuzzys home was first and he went there and his mom asked him how are you and how did things go and there was storm and it felt so nice; i moved to my home and you kno what mommy said? How's the thing is it okay what i was bringing in. Assalam Alaikum