u/Surrealist_artist

[Context: Diagnosed with DSPD but have "possible non24"— sleep specialist says I'm on the line between the two. DMLO was 5-6am when tested during my college semester, but I have been free-running over the summer. Cross posting between r/DSPD and r/N24 just to see both sides.]

For about a month now I've been consistently waking up at 9:30-10:30am, averaging about 7 hours of normal quality sleep a night. I take 8mg Ramelteon and 80mg Jornay PM at night, with 2-3 hours of sun lamp exposure in the morning.

I don't feel tired or obviously sleep deprived, just noticeably worse overall compared to when I could sleep whenever I wanted. My general motivation is lower, and I feel like I have less energy/diminished capacity to deal with things throughout the day. Jornay took the place of some of my Adderal (for ADHD), and I'm thinking it might be less effective for my motivation/executive function based symptoms.

I know that 7 hours just isn't enough sleep for me, but I cannot fall asleep any earlier on a regular basis.

Has anyone else had a similar issue—where your scedule isn't so bad that it's un-maintainable, but it isn't great either? What was your experiences with entrainment, and did you eventually resolve the problem?

I loved Bai Liu and Xe Ta's relationship in ghg and I need more!

Basically, 90% doomed yaoi with 10% HE. Something truly TRAGIC, deeply emotional, with love, loss, and yearning.

Like, a couple where each person really loves the other, and they want nothing more than to be together, but they keep getting ripped apart by a seemingly unbeatable outside force. I really like themes of fighting against fate/god/the system. Basically, "No matter how many times I lose you, no matter who or what stands in my way, I will always find you, again and again." The kind of relationship that seems doomed by the plot from the beginning, but against all odds, they push through.

I dont want any one-sided attraction/rape to lovers stories, or couples where another person/jealosy is the thing pulling them apart. It doesn't have to be romance focused, plot with a side of romance is better honestly. Any genre except modern day slice of life is ok. Also, I've already read MDZS.

Just sharing some good news; I think those who have struggled finding therapists will understand.

I managed to find a therapist who specializes in treating schizophrenia/schizospectrum disorders and ADHD. (which I also have) She said she has worked with people with SzPD before, and that on its own is amazing. I'll be scheduling an intake appointment soon. Yippee!! ＼(^▽^)／

I'm looking for a pair of Bluetooth headphones that are VERY obvious. I've been considering the Razer Kraken Kitty V3 Pro for this reason, but I want to know if there are other good options. I'm prone to getting headaches from headphones, so I'd like ones that aren't super tight. (For context, I've tried the Bose QC35 II and they hurt after a while)

Other requir****ements:

- Amazing noise canceling and/or general sound blocking

- Mic capabilities

- Decent sound quality for general use (youtube, music, gaming, calls)

- Max budget $400, ideally in the $100-200 range

- Buy online, ships to USA

A lot of the literature describes the schizoid as having a deep internal loneliness or secret longing for connection. No matter how much I've looked within myself, I've never experienced something like this.

When I do react out to people, it's more out of boredom than anything. I find I call my friend if I have an uninteresting/tedious but important thing to do, or when my motivation to do anything productive is extremely low. I get restless and more apathetic if I haven't left my house in a while, but both of these scenarios seem like dealing with a lack of stimulation rather than true loneliness.

I do feel a sense of "distance" when I'm surrounded by people who are very different from me, but it's not distressing or painful like loneliness is made out to be. I don't miss people or long for them, and I don't remember ever feeling differently. It could just be that the feeling is so repressed that it's not consciously accessible, but I have no way to verify if that is true or false.

Main questions: Do you ever feel lonely? If not, have you ever felt lonely in the past?

Additional questions: How often do you willingly interact with others? What motivates you to do so? Is there anyone you feel genuinely connected to currently?

I started taking 37.5mg of effexor a few days ago. I take it before bed, and end up waking up 5-6 hours later, overheating and drenched in sweat. My heart is pounding when I wake up, plus I feel restless, and can't sit/lay still. So far, I've not been able to get back to sleep. I usually sleep around 9-10 hours, so I've been noticeably more tired throughout the day.

I'm wondering if this is a side effect that eventually fades, or if it's just how the medication works. (because of the "N" in SNRI)

...is when people talk to me just because I'm there. I can tolerate interactions that have a clear goal, like someone wanting something specific from me.

For example, "How did you do on that exam?" "I think I did well." "How did you study for it?" "Well, I..." is a acceptable exchange, because the other person has the clear motive "Find out how score better next time". It's impersonal—not about me, but the information being shared.

I dislike when strangers or people in public places talk to me for no clear reason, though. I'm not in the waiting room just to have a chat, I'm here for a appointment, and only that. Is my mere existence enough permission to approach me?

It's one of those opinions that most people would consider strange, I'd likely come across as entitled or whiny. I'd only get a "Oh, it's just a basic social nicety, it's not that bad, just go along with it!" But, I don’t wanna.😣 Do I need to carry a fly swatter and a sign that says "If you try to talk to me I will smack you"? Sometimes I feel like that's the only way to get some peace.

Yesterday I didn't take my meds. And, oh my god. It really sucks how low-fuctioning I am without them.

I woke up and lied in bed in the dark for a few hours, sleeping on and off. Once I physically couldn't sleep any more, I went on my phone. I spent over 12 hours in bed, I only left because I was hungry. After eating I was pretty tired, and thought it wouldn't be worth it to take my meds. I napped on the couch for maybe 2 hours, then went back to bed.

Absolutely no desire to do anything at all. No guilt about it either, just "There are things I could do... but I genuinely don't care about those things...welp, back to bed I guess."

I wish I could figure out exactly what's wrong with my brain. And how to fix it, of course. I have no clue how people stand to do break/off days. Besides for times I was sick, I can't remember any day I've ever purposely skipped my meds. After all, why would I willingly subject myself to this nonsense?